devastating

I stumbled my feet, refusing to leave this very place
I wanted to stay, right here, in this strange place
Odd enough, I can't let you see me fall
For wanting you not to leave me
Please stay, Please stay, my heart screamed
You may leave, I'll be fine, my lips finally said.

This is not home, this place is not where I wanted to be, This doesn't define me
But I'm not going to jump on that bus, my feet is staying where it's standing
I waved and smiled, saying to myself I'd be fine, after all I am miss independent

No, no, please don't leave me behind, I don't want to be alone
Because noticing there's nothing awaits me when I got back to my place
Is just plain devastating
And I'm devastated. I broke.

I don't want to go. I don't want you to go.

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TiQi Bo