Planned Life

It may seem a little bit surprising for some people who knows me, but I had my life planned. Every single step, with some back up plans just in case the main plan doesn't work.

My careless actions, my impulsive thoughts, my lunatic understanding of life... They are being carefully calculated. I spent my idle time picturing the actions I have taken and the next plans I have to deal ahead. Well, actually it's called daydreaming with my eyes closed and me drooling *ahem*.

The thing is, I don't share my plans. Go through all my posts in this blog, you'll find none of my plans revealed. I'm selfish, I am. I am also afraid of stepping ahead what God has planned for me, so I'll just kept silent and keep you guys posted when the result comes up. All my success, my failure, my progress, it's a part of my planned life.

So, no regrets. Things happen for their own reasons. In time, you'd understand the reason. Right now? Just don't spoil all the fun by telling everyone about your plans. A secret makes a woman. And I think, I'm on my way to be one. :)

If my plans fail? Well, suck it up. Learn from it. Move on. I may bleed, I may cry, I might protest on how things went. But in the end? I am the one, the only one, who lives upon my own decisions, my own plans. So, there's no other suggestion on how to deal with my unfulfilled plans other than to just move on. Life doesn't stop, why would I stop trying to plan my next actions?

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TiQi Bo

Still trying to figure out my next step. :)