Hanging with the wrong crowd (*)

I had a date with Jambon yesterday. Two (autistic) loner spending some quality time together. You would be having lots of trouble framing that, but well that's what happened yesterday.
We chat a lot. No, actually it wasn't a normal chat. It was a two way monologue. I'd just spill whatever i had in mind, and Jambon would do the same. To be frank, almost 90% of the information she said was lost somewhere in the dining table, absorbed by the foods there (ahem). Apologize. But that's the kind of friend i'm comfortable with.
Anyway, we went home afterwards. I took a bus to get back to my boarding house and Jambon took another bus to got to the station. Talking about public transportation, i'm a loyal user of it, and i'm proud! :) Don't judge a girl based on the clothes she wear or the book she read or the gadgets she own, please. That judgements insult my inteligence, wherever it may lie. Yeah sure i won't deny, I love branded clothes, because they're comfortable; i love reading unusual books, it broadens my point of view; i love spending most of my money on good food and gadgets, because unlike something that breathes, foods and gadgets seldom betray me (say whaaaa???). Ahem. So yeah, I took the bus as my everyday transportation. :)
So there I was, putting my gorgeous buttocks in the bus, and I saw groups if girls, just got home from my office orientation, being a crowd. And it stroke me. I was never a member of a crowd. Seriously, suddenly I felt so lonely in that stuffed bus. I was in those girls' shoes two years ago, but I was never in the crowd. I stand alone. Me, the single fighter. I'm pathetic.
I always wanted to know, how was it like, to be in a group of people, actually exchanging stories, like a normal girl do. I don't know, it's me being sentimentil agogo probably. But i only make friends with a few individual, not able to fit in a crowd.
I tried once, when i was in my university years. 7 girls. The name of the group was balemot. But as expected, i fall behind any other member. Right now, i still miss them at times, but i never really kept in touch with them. I didn't fit any crowd.
Yeah well, i guess it's who i am. The loner, jambon said. Now, don't get me wrong, i'd be there when you need me. I'd be the one left when the crowd has passed. Me. Sitting on my shadow. *halah*

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supposed to be posted years ago. Pro procrastinator! Yeah!
(*) hanging with the wrong crowd - ed hartcourt

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