TiQi Bo

Forms of Energy

2012-01-31T15:56:00.003+07:00

I want to make an announcement. Not a big deal, but I think I need to explain how I am doing at the moment. Yes, if you heard the rumor, I am a wife now. And yes, my spouse came from a human being species *mind you, I am still wearing my human mask everywhere I go*.
Why am I married? Hmm, have no idea *dihabeg hamtaro*. I think it's time and I thought that the person I am married to now was something I could be bound to. Some of my friends chose gadgets, pets, games, work, themselves... I chose this particular person. Let's just hope we stay together long enough, till death do we apart.
No, I am not beginning a new life. I have only one life, and I embrace it. I live my life. This person I am married to hopefully could be the one I share this life to. So no, I don't buy the concept of 'Selamat menempuh hidup baru'. I am upgrading my life, not starting over.
Anyway, thank you every each one who were there when I freaked out. I will tell you guys about the details later *when my memory's not overload or lost in space*.
Second thing... I am going back to school! Yay! It's not my dream major nor school, but I got a scholarship to the place, most likely I would have to start to like the major. Um... I'm taking planning as my major, fyi. Nothing fancy. not fancy at all. God save me. :|
I'll go back to gadjah mada, where I obtained my architecture degree. *taking a deep breath*. Wish me a lot of luck :)
I almost broke down on these scholarship hunting. I tried them all, and got rejected. I was upset to my own self for not getting the scholarships. What went wrong? What haven't I do? Why wasn't I got chose? These questions haunted me for almost a year now. And this scholarship, eventhough it's not a fancy scholarship, made me smile a bit. :D *no, it's a big grin...*
I'll be back soon! :)

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TiQi Bo

A view from the other side

2011-11-22T17:24:00.002+07:00

Here I am. Sitting in a lounge. Bailing out a meeting. Not cool, I know, but this head won't sit still in that meeting.

Anyway, I've been to 3 weddings, Yu's, Munyun's, and Eiy's. I wish them a happy journey till death do they apart with their own spouses. So thrilled to see how my friends evolved and grew.

I once thought being busy would keep my mind occupied for some time, but lately I still can't resist the boredom of being anywhere, any place. Maybe because it's almost the end of the year, and job's overwhelming. I don't know. I read the in-flight travel magazines, and nothing seems to attract me.

This is completely weird. Personally, I don't like this feeling. I don't know what I want.

I tried to surf and find myself new gadgets, but either I don't like the gadget or it's too expensive I couldn't afford it. *well, it's more to the latter reason. ahem*

I'm just tired, I guess. I missed sitting here, like I am now. Occupying one corner seat, sipping my afternoon coffee, and just forget for a moment that in the other room, the meeting I suppose to attend is happening. I'm tired pretending like I care if my job's a crap. I just wanted to sit for a while, take my time, do something i really like. Which is, for the moment, I have no idea what is it.

Here's something I know at this very moment. I am a happier person without those mask of acts. Who cares? I do. For my sanity, at least.

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TiQi Bo

Wedding Spree

2011-08-13T09:51:00.002+07:00

OeL's married years ago, and now a proud mommy of mas Ali and dek Adin.

Puta's married half year ago, and... hmm, haven't heard any updates from her quite recently. But she's doing okay. My buffalo senses told me so. :p

Dedeq's just married a month ago (I already forgot the date... :D), and now living with her hubby in Bali.

Yuyu's getting married in less than 3 months, finally made up her mind of being a full entrepreneur.

Eiy has sent the dresscode for her wedding, along with the cloth to make the Kebaya. She specifically said about that Kebaya dresscode, since me and Yuyu showed up with a dress in Dedeq's wedding. She wanted a javanese wedding. She even mentioned about beskap for our spouses. *dandanin ungking pake beskap. well, Ungking's close enough to a spouse isn't he? Well, he's all I got :p*

Bie has set the date for her wedding, probably by this year also.

Well, that's the updates from my BalZ friends. How time flies. It only feels like 8 years ago that I first met those girls (right, say.. whaaaa?).

I guess it's time for me to say: "Bumi, telanlah aku" *haum. haummm*

So happy for them! :D

My Leo Guys

2011-08-13T09:45:00.002+07:00

Dear My Leo Guys,

Your birthdays are coming in a week! No, less than a week!!!

I have no idea on what things am I going to buy for you two. Typical me.

Doesn't mean I love you guys less. Doesn't mean I care about you guys no more.

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Gitu lah ya, pokoknya. *melarikan diri* *hilang di tumpukan gudang yang disebut kamar kos*

Mataram - Lombok

2011-08-03T12:56:00.003+07:00

Itinerary for Mataram - Lombok trip, in Indonesian Rupiah.

Jakarta - Mataram

DAMRI to airport : 20,000

Plane Tickets : 1,310,000

Lion Air, route: Cengkareng - Selaparang

Cab to Senggigi : 70,000
Bluebird cab lombok: +62 370 627000

Route: Finding a place to spend the night :)

Mataram City Trip

Car Rent : 350,000 - avanza car

Hotel : 370,000 /day Garden view Bungalow

415,000 /day sea view bungalow

Dharmarie Hotel Senggigi Beach, +62 370 693050

Car Rent : 081805720508.
Route: Sekarbela, downtown Mataram, Senggigi beach

Gili trip

Boat Rental : 10,000 /trip - from Bangsal. 600,000/day - local speed boat from nearby Bangsal.
Snorkling equipment : around 100,000 /spot.
Around 30 mins to get to Gili Trawangan. Amazing view. Snorkeling is a must. In a day, you could visit the other islands as well, namely Gili Air and Gili Meno. Start early in the morning. At noon, the tide's high. Try the local seafood cuisine. affordable price.

Mataram - Jakarta

Plane ticket : 910,000

Lion Air route: Mataram - Jakarta

DAMRI bandara : 20,000

Have fun! :)

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Tikki

Planned Life

2011-07-04T21:41:00.003+07:00

It may seem a little bit surprising for some people who knows me, but I had my life planned. Every single step, with some back up plans just in case the main plan doesn't work.

My careless actions, my impulsive thoughts, my lunatic understanding of life... They are being carefully calculated. I spent my idle time picturing the actions I have taken and the next plans I have to deal ahead. Well, actually it's called daydreaming with my eyes closed and me drooling *ahem*.

The thing is, I don't share my plans. Go through all my posts in this blog, you'll find none of my plans revealed. I'm selfish, I am. I am also afraid of stepping ahead what God has planned for me, so I'll just kept silent and keep you guys posted when the result comes up. All my success, my failure, my progress, it's a part of my planned life.

So, no regrets. Things happen for their own reasons. In time, you'd understand the reason. Right now? Just don't spoil all the fun by telling everyone about your plans. A secret makes a woman. And I think, I'm on my way to be one. :)

If my plans fail? Well, suck it up. Learn from it. Move on. I may bleed, I may cry, I might protest on how things went. But in the end? I am the one, the only one, who lives upon my own decisions, my own plans. So, there's no other suggestion on how to deal with my unfulfilled plans other than to just move on. Life doesn't stop, why would I stop trying to plan my next actions?

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TiQi Bo

Still trying to figure out my next step. :)

Sorong - Raja Ampat

2011-06-19T20:19:00.002+07:00

Itinerary for Sorong and Raja Ampat trip, in Indonesian Rupiah.

Jakarta - Sorong

Cab to the airport : 100,000

Plane Tickets : 1,890,000

Lion Air, route: Cengkareng, Pattimura, DEO

Breakfast : 20,000

Ojek : 75,000

Route: City tour, local port

Sorong - Waisai

Marina express : 120,000 (2 hrs trip)

Ojek : 20,000

Motel : 350,000 /day VIP room

200,000 /day standard room

Najwa Indah motel ph: 085244653444. Breakfast incl.

Boat Rental : 1,250,000 (strating price)

contact the owner of Najwa Indah. Snorkling equipment incl.

Waisai - Waiwo

Ojek : 100,000

Around 30 mins to get to Waiwo. Soil road. Amazing view.

Waisai - Teluk Mayalibit

Car rent : 100,000 /hour

800,000 /day

Waisai Rental Car ph. Iron: 081230761015

Route: Local dock, Waimasen, Teluk Mayalibit. Around 4 hours. Gravel road. Avanza car.

Waisai - Sorong

Fajar Indah boat : 100,000 (3 hrs trip)

Car rent : 100,000 /hour

Sorong Rental Car ph. Wawan: 085254062273. Innova car.

Hotel : 400,000 /day standard room

JE Meridien ph: 0951 327999. Located right in front of DEO airport, Sorong. Breakfast incl. Fre of charge transportation to airport.

Sorong - Jakarta

Plane ticket : 3,000,000

Wings Air route: Sorong - Manado

Garuda route: Manado - Jakarta

DAMRI bandara : 20,000

Have fun! :)

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Tikki

the story of my life

2011-06-19T19:50:00.002+07:00

Here I am! :D

Been away for almost a week. Literally stranded in many ways. I even loose some weight! (yeah well, the latter was you know... you should go check the truth for yourself :p)

I like traveling and enjoy the art of getting lost. It's just that, now, I realized, I worship the life I had. I could bitch all day about the traffic, and then God said: enjoy the show, girl! And God just took all the streets and the proper vehicle. Mate, that is something not to look forward to on any trip!

Let me tell you a story of the traveling pants. I took off from Cengkareng at 01.30 AM (yes, AM! grrr...) on Monday and arrived at Domine Eduardo Osok airport at 09.00 AM local time. Woohoo! The DEO airport is more like... how to describe it... a barn. I wouldn't be surprised if the plane could not land because there are boar in the runway. Or, the pilot might just say "Let's just hit the boar, and held a feast!". Mehh.

That's not it. Who says Papua is bloody hot?! Hng... when I landed at DEO it was raining. The locals said they haven't seen sunlight for two days. A good sign? Might be, if I was planning to stay in bed for the next 4 days. NOT.

The thing is, I have to catch a boat at the local dock to go to the place I have to be. Every single day, there are 2 boats, the slow boat and speed boat to head off to the island. At exactly 2 PM local time, the boat would leave the boat. So, bye-bye to all of you on late arrival. You could all come back tomorrow. :p

I took the speed one, and spend around 2 hours at the sea. The locals said, it's the southern wind season, so the tide's high and it's cloudy all day. Great...

I arrived at Waisai port around 4 PM local time. so, it's around 15 hours of trip just to be in Waisai! At the time, I can't even feel my legs. Fortunately, I got a great motel to stay. So I spend the rest of the day sleeping. :D

I spend 3 days on the island, exploring it. Kabupaten Raja Ampat is... 8 years old. The main street was around 10 KM, and that was it :|. The road were soils and gravels covered in creeper plants. Tried to ask the driver, were there any wild life in the bushes. The driver replied: snakes. Okay, windows up! Fasten seatbelt! I did saw an eagle flew on one of my trip.

I'll tell you about the trips on the island on another post (if I ever remember). Again, to come back to Jakarta I have to spend around 15 more hours. My butt... ouch.

The thing is, my life is an entire chaos. After I landed in Jekarrrrdaaaahhhh... I have to head to Bandung immediately. Not that I complain, but I really do miss my bed. But then, my cousin's wedding was a pay off. He finally got married! :D The cousin who picked me up in the beginning of my Bandung part of life!

So here I am, awake after spending like 4 hours of straight sleep. *yawn*

And tomorrow's monday. Another office hour! yay! *taking pillow to the office tomorrow*

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TiQi Bo

.loveyou.

2011-05-19T17:06:00.000+07:00

I was there when he arrived in this world.
Two years in lead.

Since the moment he presents himself to me,
I fell in love.
I still love him now.
Hopefully I still could love him 'til I leave this world.

I know he loves me back.
I just knew it.

I made a promise to myself,
I won't let him down.
I won't let him see me bleed.
I won't let him walk alone.

I know he has his own dreams to pursue.
I just wish he knew I'd be here,
giving him the greatest support I could give.

And dear god, don't this love crush him.
I love you, dear Ungking. :)

This Ain't The Fairy Tale

2011-05-10T11:40:00.004+07:00

Every girl, I repeat, every single girl in this world, has her fairy tale living inside herself. Yes, you girls born with vaginas and later grow boobs, should admit it. How fearless you might seem, how independent you might be, how artificial your body are, deep there, there’s this Cinderella, Pocahontas, Barbie, Snow White selves. Don’t buy it? Did you recall the last time you went home, driving by yourself, and suddenly the sound system just blast Maroon 5’s *errr, I forgot the song… the one with, ‘I don’t mind standing everyday, right on your corner…’ lyric?* that song, and suddenly you felt like when you came home, it’ll be raining and there would be Adam Levine standing on your doorway? No? Never? Well, it’s just me then.

But come on drama queens. No matter how much you hated those sinetrons on tv, you are still looking for that spotlight, and pretend that you’re the lead character in your story of life. Sometimes you took part as the scriptwriter as well. You wanted things to go as you picture it, as you planned it. Still don’t believe me? Well just go throw yourself to one shopping mall with an unlimited credit card, and just report to me on what have you splurge.

(That's me... being the Oh-So-Beautiful-Princess-With-Giraffe-Headed-Tiara)

The thing is, my fellow fairy tale princess friends… *tidying up my tiara* There’s this other creature who was born with penis attached and later grow a filter for those loveydovey things, named man. Male, for exact. Now, they don’t think like those princes in fairy tales. Have you been watching prince William? Well, scratch off the fact that he’s hat-genic, still he’s no prince in fairy tale. He still waited for 9 years to propose and went to the office after his wedding. Now, I don’t think that’s what Kate Middleton had in mind. But then, she compromised. She tore the papers of her fairy tale and wrote her story all over again. So much for marrying a prince. ☺

Anyway, having this male creature living on the same earth, meaning we, as fairy tale princesses (Tidying up my tiara… again), have to compromise. So don’t expect for some guy waiting for you under the rain when you came home, because you’ll be defeated by football, soccer, automobiles, motorbikes, boxing (!). No, the guy would like completely ignore your existence in this world when it happens. And (say) if there’s GP racing, their favorite club on match, and gadgets on the show, you should just fade away gracefully, because not only that you did not exist in their minds, your fairy tale story is also falling apart. Trust me, from all the case studies I stalk observe, they wouldn’t even care if you walk around naked are lost inside this jungle and tried to call him.

So, nope, this ain’t the fairy tale. Unless you’re a lesbian. Errr… that would make it more complicated for your life, so I would suggest to stay on your track. ☺

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TiQi Bo

photo courtesy of Ayu Wiryodisastro

the acakadut entry

2011-05-08T14:10:00.000+07:00

Let’s see. I haven’t done a proper writing for so long. This blog is abandoned, I might say.

I’ve been doing normal stuff, like performing tari agar2 to call up rains (which I just did yesterday, 6 May 2011, and yes, I do regret my action. I should’ve perform tari agar2 when I am already safe and sound in my boarding house instead of doing it in the office. I got stuck in the traffic, thank you for my brilliant action *sigh*), headbanging in the office and “accidentally” ignore when my boss summon me up (blame that to the particular person inhabiting the corner seat of my office! She can’t stop yapping, and I have to stop myself from sealing her lips with duct tapes! So yeah, blasting sounds from my earphones ARE my savior. Except for the fact that my boss usually sneaks up on my back and caught me doing MORE stupid stuffs), being annoying when I got bored (which, in my case, happens every 5 minutes I sit still. And do not ignore me when I become annoying, because it’s a trigger to the MORE annoying me. Yay! :D), etc. See? Been busy doing normal things that people do.
I develop these habits lately. Well, I do have a slightly off the track habits, but this time, the habit I develop help me to survive another day.

1. Putting Kuro on silent mode, and let the battery drain. You know the weird thing when you completely ignore your gadget? It wants your attention even more. Gadgets have demands, you know, so you have to train them. Usually, if I treat Kuro this way, people came looking for me. Weird, huh? Telepathy doesn’t work through Kuro. At times I tried to concentrate and tell Kuro just to blink when I got stuck in an amazingly boring meeting, and yet, it betrays me! It usually did the other way around. When I’m on my way home, or just preparing my midnight sleep, or when I’m grumpy, it blinks! Unbelievable, huh?! So yeah, I’d put Kuro on silent mode and let the battery drain. Because, Kuro, sir, I am enjoying my sleep without you blinking! Which happen at around 1 AM – 9 AM. Mahahaha! *got smacked in my head by my boss*

2. Turning up the volume of my earphones when I took the bus trip. There is definitely something going on between the singers and how much time the bus took time just to prove that the passengers are patient enough not to kill the driver. Buses in Jakarta. One word: Mehh. Wait, it’s not even a word, but hell care. So yeah, I develop this habit. If the singer sings hard enough to beat my earphone, I would ‘appreciate’ them. It’s amazing how noisy sounds usually win the battle between earphones and well, noises. But well, it was just me having fun on my 45 mins ride home. J

3. Using the ground floor bathroom of my office. My floor’s bathroom is a mess. Somebody designed 2 grand meeting rooms located on my floor and only having 4 WC for women? Disastrous! Please, one with a healthy mind would know how barbaric an Indonesian could be. You could wear Gucci and manolo blahnik, and still squat when you use the sitting closet!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA… *hngh. Breathe in… breathe out.* Not to mention, it’s a dry bathroom! Well, it WAS suppose to be a dry bathroom. But no, I don’t have the privilege to use dry bathroom on my floor. Betjek, cyiiinnn… *yak, mulai ngondek. Slap! Slap!* So yeah, I went to ground floor. It’s sound and silent. Me likey! Just wait until day turns into night, and that sound and silent place turns into creepy. No electricity on the hallway in front of the bathroom. So yeah, back to the yuck-bathroom!

And you guys think after I haven’t write for some times, I changed? Hng… you wished for too much. Still me, still chaotic life I’m dealing. Why haven’t I write? The internet sucks! Not to mention you got twitter now, right? Yeah, that micro-blogging thing is on the loose. No worries, I still write, right?

*geez, I can’t feel my fingers.* lame.

blinded

2011-05-06T13:58:00.004+07:00

Dear me,
Have you seen your reflection in the mirror lately?
Have you looked into yourself?
Have you listen to what your heart say?

Because honestly,
It's been so hard to love you.
You look like a pile of shit.
That, you do.

Dear me,
Please give up trying.
You would never win the fight against life.
Life won't take control of yourself either.

yours truly,
mind.

Chasing Cars

2011-04-08T18:08:00.002+07:00

"If I lay here, if I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?"
- Chasing Cars, Snow Patrol
- Taken from Grey's Anatomy season 7 episode 18

just like Jambon said: epic!

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TiQi Bo

Happy happy happy! i guess

2011-04-06T16:16:00.003+07:00

Okay, i admit; i am just being one lazy ass to write in this blog. Not much going on in my life to be told as well, well at least not the ones i wanted to share with the whole universe.
Office is doing just fine. New boss(es) around, so there's some minor change applied in the daily routines. I stopped taking morning shower because of it.. Errr, okay okay, that's not the reason i didn't bathe in the morning.. It's because i am concerned of the water crisis occuring.. *fail excuse* Anywaaaay.. Office is just office. A place where at times i have to pay attention in people talking about bathimetri or land use or hidrogeography or any new terms that i don't have the slightest clue that they existed in this entire universe! (okay, overrated).
Have I state in this blog? Andun, a cousin of mine finally got married. A fine wedding, which hopefully would last until death do they be apart :). She's a member of the three stooges (as I quote kak Kiki) which only had three members: andun, dhanar, me. She was the oldest *ahem* amongst the three of us, so I just let her go with a short notice. I mean, man... It only took her like less than half a year to finally decide to marry this guy. I was kinda surprised (as in "so glad to hear that!" not in a way of "did you get knock up?!" sort of way). So here I am, being the two stooges alongside dhanar. Aaaaaand the story hasn't end yet my friends... A month after andun's wedding, dhanar announced that he's proposing his girlfriend (bumi, telanlah aku moment for me). Well, to be true, i was happy yet nervous. Me, being the only stooge left. Personaly? I do not mind. But if you knew my mum really well, it's getting on her nerves.
Ah, why can't there be peace among the both of us? My mum and me, I mean. I will not blame her for every decision I make, but she has this great influence on the decisions I make. This is one thing I would like to avoid when I became a mum someday. Don't get me wrong, I live my mum and I respect her much, but sometimes I wanted her just to sit down and seal her lips. To hell are with what everybody say. So what if other people got married? So what if I spent my money on gadgets instead of make-ups? So what?
I'm fed up. I got caught in my emotions. My highschool emotion, to be precise. Too much pressure from someone would just make me want to runaway even further.
Why didn't I just take the easy way, got married, moved in to Solo, have kids, and turn into someone that my mum want? I know the answer, that's not who I am. I wish my mum would know how much I've tried to be someone that she wanted me to be, although I'm fooling myself. I wish I could be someone my mum is proud of, without altering myself into someone else.

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TiQi Bo

why so serious?

2011-02-23T11:46:00.002+07:00

Miv, a friend of mine stated: 'if you're taking this seriously, you should picture you guys being an item'
I was... shocked. What does she mean... by... serious... ?
To be true, I avoid taking anything in my life seriously. Gives me shivers. Jinx. Whatever you may name them. I don't know, I'm a coward when it came to the word 'serious'. Kept hiding from it.
And apparently, the friend who suggest me to get serious with my choices of life, tends to break down every single month. Bleeding openly of her targets which were not fulfilled.
I had my break down. I got bleed. I got scars. At least, by not taking things seriously, I tend to forget those things. Covering it up with a smile, a laughter, another spoken dreams.
This is how I handle my life. Keeping it on the edge of sanity. Handling things with the best way I know, by taking them lightly.
So, Why so serious? Come to me again?

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TiQi Bo

Hanging with the wrong crowd (*)

2011-01-28T16:40:00.002+07:00

I had a date with Jambon yesterday. Two (autistic) loner spending some quality time together. You would be having lots of trouble framing that, but well that's what happened yesterday.
We chat a lot. No, actually it wasn't a normal chat. It was a two way monologue. I'd just spill whatever i had in mind, and Jambon would do the same. To be frank, almost 90% of the information she said was lost somewhere in the dining table, absorbed by the foods there (ahem). Apologize. But that's the kind of friend i'm comfortable with.
Anyway, we went home afterwards. I took a bus to get back to my boarding house and Jambon took another bus to got to the station. Talking about public transportation, i'm a loyal user of it, and i'm proud! :) Don't judge a girl based on the clothes she wear or the book she read or the gadgets she own, please. That judgements insult my inteligence, wherever it may lie. Yeah sure i won't deny, I love branded clothes, because they're comfortable; i love reading unusual books, it broadens my point of view; i love spending most of my money on good food and gadgets, because unlike something that breathes, foods and gadgets seldom betray me (say whaaaa???). Ahem. So yeah, I took the bus as my everyday transportation. :)
So there I was, putting my gorgeous buttocks in the bus, and I saw groups if girls, just got home from my office orientation, being a crowd. And it stroke me. I was never a member of a crowd. Seriously, suddenly I felt so lonely in that stuffed bus. I was in those girls' shoes two years ago, but I was never in the crowd. I stand alone. Me, the single fighter. I'm pathetic.
I always wanted to know, how was it like, to be in a group of people, actually exchanging stories, like a normal girl do. I don't know, it's me being sentimentil agogo probably. But i only make friends with a few individual, not able to fit in a crowd.
I tried once, when i was in my university years. 7 girls. The name of the group was balemot. But as expected, i fall behind any other member. Right now, i still miss them at times, but i never really kept in touch with them. I didn't fit any crowd.
Yeah well, i guess it's who i am. The loner, jambon said. Now, don't get me wrong, i'd be there when you need me. I'd be the one left when the crowd has passed. Me. Sitting on my shadow. *halah*

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supposed to be posted years ago. Pro procrastinator! Yeah!
(*) hanging with the wrong crowd - ed hartcourt

TiQi Bo

Just Run. Now.

2011-01-28T16:33:00.002+07:00

Drive yourself away from me
as fast as you can
I'm not worth the fight
I might just hurt you
And force you to go.

I'm a chaos. I'm a mess. I'm torn.
And right now
I might just harm you

Please go.
I don't wanna end up hurting anybody.

changes

2010-12-19T17:06:00.003+07:00

everybody expect themselves to change
to adjust with the environment
to fit in the other person
to get along with the situation

at times i just hope
the environment tries to adjust with who i am
the other person would just understands me
the situation supports for my being

is it so hard for a girl to just be perfect in her own world?
at this lifetime? the answer is 'hell yeah'

so for the time being, i'm evolving.
and at the other time, i want people to just take me for me.

Between the long winding road

2010-12-13T11:24:00.000+07:00

I spent my whole lifetime on the road
In search of a place to call home
The cities i traveled
through
The excitement of being elsewhere.

After a while, now I learnt
I wasn't in quest of finding a nest for me
I was struggling to define myself
And I have no regrets on that
I can surely tell you who I am and the ingredients to form me completely

My home is always there
In the hearts of the ones who loved me
And that's where I'll be heading for comfort

You.

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somewhere between my flights. Haven't been home for a while.

Last Month

2010-11-19T15:56:00.002+07:00

Last few month was one hell of an experience for me. My friends got jaw-dropped for the journey I've made. Why do I have to spill about it now? Well, certainly, I won't spill bluntly on my trips, as always. I just want to let my friends know, the trips, the journeys, or whatever you may call it, every ride has it consequences. Just so you know. :)
So where should I start. I'm not good at memorizing dates, so let's start with Batam story. My office held a meeting there. Usual things: hotel rooms, long-boring-tiring meetings, and stumbled relationships with other human being :p. Business trip, mate... No matter how fun it sounds for you, for me, if it involves dealing with a group of human being, just erase the word 'fun' from my forehead. I'll be grumpy, as always. :)
After Batam, I head off to Singapore. Along with the annoying group of human beings. From all of the trip I've been, this trip is hell. I repeat... HELL. slow walking pace, different point of interest, unstopped yapping, restless critics. Enough of it already! I should've just head home straight after the business trip. At least I know, one or two human being is fine... groups of human being? No. No. Nonononono. No. Nonono!
After that, I stayed in Jakarta for some time, and continue my business trip. *sounds really important, huh? business trip. I never knew, it'd sound this way :p*. I went off to Bali. Yeah-yeah, you can scream and hop around when you heard Bali. But the tight schedule from 8 AM - 10 PM?! Just bite me. Fortunately, I've got friends who cared about me. Thank you Dedeq, Eiy, Intan, Cik Jean, and Aura. You girls made my business trip more fun! I thank you all.
I dragged my ass right after Bali. I have to head off for my personal matters :). That ass-dragging to the airport was one experience to tell.
If you say it was fun, I have to admit the trips were great! But still, I need some rest and a place to come home to by the end of the trip. Those trips are exhausting. They really are.

Hail trips! :D

---
TiQi Bo

devastating

2010-11-16T13:08:00.002+07:00

I stumbled my feet, refusing to leave this very place
I wanted to stay, right here, in this strange place
Odd enough, I can't let you see me fall
For wanting you not to leave me
Please stay, Please stay, my heart screamed
You may leave, I'll be fine, my lips finally said.

This is not home, this place is not where I wanted to be, This doesn't define me
But I'm not going to jump on that bus, my feet is staying where it's standing
I waved and smiled, saying to myself I'd be fine, after all I am miss independent

No, no, please don't leave me behind, I don't want to be alone
Because noticing there's nothing awaits me when I got back to my place
Is just plain devastating
And I'm devastated. I broke.

I don't want to go. I don't want you to go.

---
TiQi Bo

Not Gone

2010-10-15T20:45:00.002+07:00

It's been a while since I wrote something here. Nothing special to share (yeah, I like to keep my private stuffs... you know, private). Got bored with what's going on with my life, but well, life is full of surprises.. No worries. :)
First things first. Magda and Pip are both mommies-to-be. Still, I tried to name their Tikki, but they turned it down. How about 'Poki'? Ponakan Tikki? Well, I don't think they'll take it as well.. :p
Mummy's still Mummy... :) I like what she said the last time I called her: 'I love you. And I wish someday you'd realize that. I pushed you hard to let you know, happiness doesn't come instantly. You'd find obstacles, the ones you think you couldn't handle, to finally walk out with a smile on your face". She knows me well. I am one stupidly hard to convince that there's some people who actually love me for me. I tend to draw myself and enlarge my invisible bubble. I have only few friends, but once I consider them as my friends, I gave them all I've got. Just bear with me, because I don't fall for something easily.
I'm still me. The girl who stands out of the circle, just to watch everything. It's fun, you know, being able to observe things. Watching people doing their mistakes, succeeded, and finally left. The beauty of life. The consequences.
Well anyway, I'm never gone. I'm here. If you know me well, and you need me, you'd know how to reach me. :)

---
TiQi Bo

Reversed Order Mechanism

2010-09-25T13:16:00.003+07:00

I am tired of inhaling air
Just to exhale it out to the open air again

It's exhausting and meaningless
And it takes loads of efforts from my whole body

But it's something that keeps me alive, though
Yet my life, even though it's going nowhere at the moment
It has a meaning
Maybe not for me, but for those who I care most

Yep
I need to exhale
Let out all the carbon dioxide
To inhale my dosage of air
And fill in my lung with oxygen

At least I survived another blink of an eye.

---
TiQi Bo

Dek Raka

2010-09-04T10:37:00.002+07:00

Dek Raka adalah Ponakannya Meta. Meta itu teman saya. Kenal waktu di Yogya. Anak Arsitektur juga. Tapi dia aneh, saya tidak. *ahem* Maksudnya, saya tidak normal, bukan tidak aneh.

Bo: Apa kabar Raka, Syume?
Meta: Udah nggak lucu. Udah mulai nyebelin.
Bo: Hooo... iya sih, udah mulai beranjak dewasa. halah.
Meta: Ho oh.
Bo: Nggak bisa ya, Raka tetep berumur dua tahun selamanya?
Meta: Malah medeni no, Tik.
Bo: Hmm. Benar juga. Tapi tak ada salahnya dicoba, kan?
Meta: Nanti aja kalo anakmu.
Bo: Nggak bisa. Harus Raka. Kan yang lucu Raka.

Bo: Raka udah punya adek belom, Syume?
Meta: Dia nggak mau adek baru.
Bo: Trus?
Meta: Maunya punya kakak.
Bo: Hmm... Berat ya, punya anak zaman sekarang.

Meta: Aneh banget, Tik...
Bo: Siapa? Kamu?
Meta: Raka.
Bo: Kenapa?
Meta: Dia main sepeda di jalan kompleks sendiri. Jatuh sendiri. Naik sepeda lagi ke rumah. Trus sampe rumah ngamuk ke Ibunya. 'Ibu ini gimana sih? Kan Raka jatuh di depan! Kenapa nggak tolongin Raka?'
Bo: Ibunya lagi di mana?
Meta: Rumah.
Bo: Raka jatuh di mana?
Meta: Jalan. Di luar rumah.
Bo: Trus, gimana cara Ibunya mesti nolong?

Raka. He's mysterious. Just like life surrounds me. :)

The lover after me

2010-08-17T21:13:00.002+07:00

The adventure of Bo feat Munyun continues! :D I never thought this 12 years old friendship could get any lost than our Bandung part of life, but well... last weekend was a proof that human creature, especially by the name of Bo and Munyun, just won't learn anything.. :p
I hope I didn't get the jinx of telling these stories about Munyun in my blog, but well she is something. She's been there through my bad... and worse time. :D She was there when I was down low through my Ambon fugitives day and she was there when I was rambling about the guy in my Bandung part of life. She knows my core family and I know hers. Hmmm... well, my parents don't know her that well... Hopefully they won't or my mum would never see her the same way anymore.
Anyway, it's season 12 of our friendship thingy. Back in our junior high period of life, I never thought our adventures would be this complicated. But well, here we go...
Last weekend, I had a date with Munyun and Cengkareng. Yes. Me. home.
I was stretching my smile ear-to-ear when I woke up on friday morning, knowing that my bosses are all gone all day, so I could sneak out from the office earlier. So, I told Munyun to meet me up at the airport. But friday... and it was the 13th... Bad sign. My Bu Bosh call me up to go to her meeting place, to finish up my work. Meeeehhhhh....
So, plans changed. Munyun would pick me up in Kemang, my boss' meeting place. I've told my boss I had a date with an airplane by 5.45 pm, so I was hoping I could sneak out by 2pm.
And chaos started to happen. Munyun's driver didn't have a clue, where on earth is Kemang... (bentar, gue pengen nyolot... HARE GENEEE... GAK TAU KEMAAAANG??? KEMANA AJA LUUU??? yang akan dijawab oleh supirnya Munyun: Saya dulunya supir angkot di Bogor, neng... OK, enough said). Aaaaand, Munyun got lost in the toll exit... c'est parfait...
So yeah, by 2pm, my work wasn't done yet. So I sent telepathic signals to bu Bosh, me.have.to.run.by.2.30pm. repeat. Yeah!!! By 2.30pm I was out from that meeting place. Call up Munyun to see where she was at the moment. She waaaaaassss... somewhere.. :| Meeeehhhh... So, I took a cab and said to Munyun (at the time, she went out from the toll at Pondok Indah) I'll meet her in PIM.
Bo: OK, see you in PIM.
Munyun: PIM 1 or 2?
Bo: Just get out from that toll, I'm heading to PIM now.
Munyun: OK...
*5 minutes later*
Munyun: Errr... Let's just meet up at Poins.
Bo: What happened to PIM?
Munyun My driver doesn't know the way to reach PIM.
Bo: And why did you even ask 'PIM 1 or 2'?
Munyun: Errr... usually, I went there with my friends... I just sit calm, and voila!
Bo: Mehh...
So I got to Poins by 3.15pm and we got in the toll by 3.30pm.
Munyun: Did you see what I see?
Bo: Err... yeah...
Munyun: Cars! Traffic! Jam!
Bo: Just start praying now, will you?
Munyun: Aaaaargh...
Ow yeaaaaahhh!!! when I thought things couldn't get any worse...
Munyun: And it's raining.
Bo: Hmmm... I can see that too...
But well, we got to the airport by 5pm. Rushed to the terminal. Aaaaaaand... the officer said our plane was in terminal C. (Ya ampun, makasih banyak loh mbaaaak... kenapa nggak sekalian aja bilang kita disuruh pindah terminal 3?). So we head off to this terminal...
As we got to the terminal (Uhm, Munyun was dragging a baggage, by the way... >:)), it went even silly. Yeah, we all know we have to go through the x-ray thingy to get into the plane.
Officer: Please leave your watches in the tray
Bo: Huh? Watches too.
Officer: And your sandals too, ma'am
Munyun: My sandals as well?! (I was wearing sneakers at the time)
Munyun: Thank God they didn't ask me to put my tooth brace in the tray as well...
Maybe it's because we're heading to Solo, while Baasyir is everywhere in the news. Or maybe it was just our luck, our face looked like criminals? Only heaven knows...

...I'm sleepy... I'll continue later...

GARerun

2010-07-29T22:49:00.002+07:00

I love watching Grey's Anatomy. Well, lately, it's because Jackson Avery is there. He doesn't say any line, he's just... there... *slap me...*
Anyway, few days ago a friend of mine said to me: Do you remember the first season of GA? When Christina Yang said to Meredith Grey that she's her person, well... you're my person... If something happened to me, remember, you're my person.
Err... first of all, I wanted to be Christina Yang *gak penting deh ah*. Second thing, if I'm Meredith, then if someday I am planning to build a house, I have to fit in a room, just for her... her room in my house *gak penting deh ah #2*.
Seriously, Grey's Anatomy aren't real, people! come on... in real life, you wouldn't hear those lines they said on screen. Well, if you still attempt to do that, you might slip, or end up babbling... Won't be that perfect. Trust me, I've tried :p. But well, my friend is right in a way, everybody needs to be somebody else' 'person' and needs somebody else to be their 'person'. I might just completely had the break down, if I don't have my person. The one I think could keep all my mellow yellow things and cover it up and present me as the psycho girl to the world *wait a sec, I don't quite know, how a psycho girl is better than mellow yellow me... but well...*
And well, in my daily life, I won't get to see the Jackson Avery personification. At least until this very moment, I still couldn't spot that person. And don't forget how Alex Karev has become. Hmm, that guy... *ih, pengen cubit! halah*.
My life is not the operating room. I came to the office and stare blankly to my monitor, or went to a meeting I don't even know what language were they speaking, or bluff as if I got the answer to questions of my work. I don't save lives. I might save some asses, but no, I don't save lives :p. Frankly I've lost my passion of this work. Well, it's not that I lost it, I just never seem to find the strive to get really involved with my current job. But well, it pays quite well, and it could buy me toys that could made me happy for a while. Who said money can't buy happiness? It could. Money just can't buy joy. You need to recharge the happiness. :)
My boss isn't exactly Miranda Bailey. OK, let's not talk about my boss, the whole office would be dragged down. I just wish I won't become that major conspiracy of this office. Driving me insane.

Ah well anyway, I might not be the one you would look up to in the office. I'm not good at my job. But well, at least I've found persons who I could drag to my own world. And I thank everyone of you. :)

---
TiQi Bo

Why?

2010-07-22T07:39:00.002+07:00

A friend: Why are you trying this hard to find out something that you know will fail?
Me: I wanted to know my limits. And no one can be certain about the future until it happens.
A friend: What if you fail?
Me: I'll bleed. I'd stumble. I'll cry my eyes out. I'd regret. But at least I tried.
A friend: What if the universe conspires to let you fail?
Me: I don't know. All I know is I've got to try. While I have the chance.
A friend: Why are you torturing yourself?
Me: Because I can't torture anybody else. It's my dream. And no one should suffer other than me.
A friend: With no preparation at all?
Me: I've prepared. I'll meet you there.
A friend: Why are you so optimistic?
Me: When I have no preparation, when you tell me I'll fail, when the universe conspires against me, I have to picture myself there, in my dream place, so I could raise up my mood and just struggle harder.
A friend: You're pathetic.
Me: I know. I love it when you're sarcastic.

Taking life seriously

2010-07-17T09:26:00.003+07:00

A friend of mine asked me, am I always taking things light and easy and being unserious.
Well, I take things light and easy, but mind you... I take things seriously. I only got a life to live, how can I not be taking things seriously? With the fact that no one come back from death? Yeah, rite... Things from this life is what I'm taking for the afterlife. Hmm, to think of it... Let's just picture I won't go to hell, shall we?
The thing is, even though I'm serious, I can't help myself to see things from a different perspective. The perspective normal people couldn't see. And I express those visions through my gesture and actions. So yeah, I'm being not normal, I'm the weird, the freak, the geek. But it doesn't mean I don't take things seriously.
Come on, people! If I'm not taking life seriously, would you think I felt the obligation to even continue my phase of life from being a student to someone that actually make money? (and my friend Sendang would just have to shut her mouth about how much I make in a month, compared to her... :p).
I'm not always fun to hang out with. I bitch about my life. I felt down at times and just lay down on my floor. I project where am I going to be in the near future. I did those normal stuff, in my own way.
Now I'm not expecting everyone would understand how I handle things and how I set my priorities. It'll be awkward and I'll be crystal clear for world to see about my moves. I may seem random, but hey... there's always an order in chaos. You just have to solve the riddle.
And that, my friend... made you qualified enough to be my friend.

---
TiQi Bo

Jambon

2010-07-12T22:52:00.003+07:00

Today's stupid conversation:

Jambon: If you don't know the way to Citos, your next birthday, I'll buy you a map!
Bo: Uhm. All this time, I depend on people who got me to Citos, so you better buy me a map for my next birthday. And I hope it's an electric one. So I'd just sit and it'll show the way.
Jambon: I'd buy you a dog. It's that enough?
Bo: Uhm. Is it edible?
Jambon: I bought you a dog so you won't get lost! Don't eat it!
Bo: But uhm, if I got lost, can I eat the dog?
Jambon: Whatever. It's your dog anyway.
Bo: Wait a sec... I have a dog? What? When? How?
Jambon: *zeeeennnnnn* *I'm not gonna slap you*
Bo: Ow, you're no fun! You could do this mature thingy with supermanyun. Me no likey your mature thingy.
Jambon: *jewer* *ambil sekop*
Bo: *slenthik* Hey! that's more like it! :D

I must admit. It takes a lot of patience to deal with me, when I need to spill my 7000 words per day. And it took another twisted head, just to understand that conversation I just wrote down.
This girl. My bucket to spill my 7000 words per day. I just get to know her for a year. Yet, she never fails to surprise me. She grew right in front of me. She's more mature now *OK, I admit... I wanted to write 'old' instead of mature, but well... she might just kill me with thos 'zeeeennnnn' whatever thing*. She became loveydovey lately, and that's not my thingy. But well, anyway... lots have changed in a year. Lots have happened. Some things you like, the others you hate.
Thank god she hasn't lost her insanity. Or well, if she's faking her insanity, maybe I;d just have to work it out so she'd find her way to the eternal insanity... right? right?

---
TiQi Bo
wait a sec... Jambon, you read my blog, right? This is my *akuuuuu..... gilaaaaaaa...* speaking. I'd probably regret my blog entry when I'm sober. Thanks for being insane, mate. :)

.24.

2010-07-10T11:54:00.002+07:00

I don't think I have 100 years to live, so well I'll consider being 24 is an achievement. :)
Thank you for the blessing, gifts, prayers, *curse*, whatever you may say it. You all kept me going on until this morning. I thank you.
The best birthday greeting came from a cousin of mine: 'You could go get for everything for life, but just don't get married first. My mum would yell at me if you got married before me...'. Well, to tell you the truth... errr... marriage still hasn't crossed my mind at the moment, dear cousin. Just relax. But well, I don't know about tomorrow... *yak, malah bikin deg2an... mueheheheheheeh *ketawa jahat**.
I didn't mean to hide my birthday throughout, but yeah.. I like to keep my personal stuffs, well, personal. What's the point of having greetings from everybody from the entire universe if they don't mean anything to you? But well, that's was just my thought.
So yeah, still gots wish list to achieve. Hoping you guys would say prayers for me and my wish list. I'll let you guys know when I've achieve those wishlist. :)

Deargod,
I thank You for life and all the order in chaos that build up my life.
I thank You.

---
Tikki Mahayanti
Whoa, I'm already 24! err... or was it, yippie! I'm only 24! :p

hail stupidity! :p

2010-07-01T00:13:00.002+07:00

#1
A: Ini baunya kayak bunga itu ya...
Bo: Apa?
A: Apa? Kantil? Cantil?
Bo: Oh. Srintil?
A: Kayaknya bukan deh.
Bo: Ya bukanlaaaah. Srintil kan, pup kambing...

#2
B: Nggak makan nasi. Diet.
*5 menit kemudian*
B: Gue nyarap dulu yak. Mo sop ikan Manado.
*10 menit setelah dari sop ikan*
B: Pengen ngemil gorengan
*5 menit setelah makan gorengan*
B: Makan siang kapan?
*yeah. go figure*

#3
C: Wah. Lagi pada buka puasa?
Bo: Iya dong. Kita kan bikin klub puasa senin kamis! :D
C: Oh ya? Wah!
Bo: Iya. Anggotanya cuma dia *nunjuk teman berbuka puasa*

#4
D: Nanti pas di sana gue pengen mabok.
Bo: Lah yang kemaren?
D: Apaan?
Bo: Yang elu ngoceh panjang lebar, trus besoknya baru nyadar?
D: Kan cuma minum redokson...
Bo: Redokson aja celeng... apalagi mabok beneran?
*yeah. This add up my weird friends... ada yang mabok minum coke, yang ini mabok minum redokson*

#5
Bo: Jadi, udah inget yang namanya 'Anu'?
E: Udah.
Bo: Yang mana?
E: Yang itu.
Bo: Err... Yang MANA?
E: Err... yang... itu?
*gret. explains it all*

certainly uncertain

2010-06-30T23:47:00.002+07:00

People change. OK, you might deny that matter, so let's say... condition changes... Some were fortunate enough to keep up with those changes, and the others were less fortunate...
I got news coming from my friends lately. I was so thrilled to heard their success and tried to be *well* who I am when they're down. *geez, remind me to call Munyun... Hope she's doing fine... I kept forgetting to call her* *wait, what didn't I forgot???*. Which apparently shock me was my decision of keeping my friends in my life after listening them bitching :p.
Have you ever felt like giving up on a friend? Let him/her out of your circle? Never let him/her affect the condition surrounds you? Well, I have. Lots of times. But then, they are the reason I kept going until now. I may not like them, I may think they were useless, but well, they are who I am at the moment. The past Bo? It's who I share with the past persons in my life.
But well, I can't keep running in circle in a long time. So I might have to 'recycle' once in a while. Like hitting the 'refresh' button on your computer screen. Meet up new people. Gather up new inside jokes. Sharing life with new crowds. Life pushed me to be a traveler. Always will.
I can't predict and chose who I'll end up with. Which crowd I'd hang out. Because life itself is uncertain. Certainly uncertain :).

---
TiQi Bo

dearmum

2010-06-20T21:38:00.002+07:00

Dear Mummy,
It's been almost 24 years now, you have been my mum. Before you judge anything, I would like to state: I love you. I don't know how I fell in love with you, all I know is ever since I saw this world, I love you.
Yet, you frustrate me at times. Especially when it comes to my personal stuffs. I got the clue, that you want me to share the events happening in my life. I think you never get the glance of not sharing them to other person outside the core family.
I'm an introvert, mummy. When will you understand that? I don't like to spread out the news that aren't certain. Especially about my life.

vertigo

2010-06-15T21:10:00.003+07:00

Vertigo (from the Latin vertō "a whirling or spinning movement") is a type of dizziness, where there is a feeling of motion when one is stationary. The symptoms are due to a dysfunction of the vestibular system in the inner ear. It is often associated with nausea and vomiting as well as difficulties standing or walking.

I hate it when vertigo strikes. :(

it's over. you hear me? over.

2010-06-15T20:52:00.002+07:00

I tried my best not to yell at you, you know. I'm being a good friend, and I've drew this fine line of only showing my emotion to the person I care. *so yeah, when I scream at you, it means that I'm comfortable being with you. You should be honored :p*. So yeah I kept ignoring all the loveydovey nicknames you gave when you called me.
Let me tell you something. I think you should know by now. It's almost two years now. It's OVER. Why don't you just move on with your life. I'd be happy for you. Where were you when I cried my eyes out? ring a bell? Right, nowhere in my sight. :)
So, please. I know you read my blog. Stop it. I don't need those nicknames again. I don't need the loveydovey thingie. You're two years behind. Get over it.
Why can't we just be friends? A normal one?

friends

2010-06-09T22:24:00.003+07:00

I found this sentence, which describe what friends really mean to me:
Friends... they never let you do stupid things... alone. :p

I like being anonymous. I mean, well yeah, I know that girl and that guy and that douche bag (err... ok), but well, I like being behind the scene. I don't need any fame.
The thing is. My friends. They're not much, but uhm... how can I say this in a positive way? They're one of a kind. :)
So there's a PDA couple, and there's a long distance house wife that had emotional problems *especially when she's having her period... aaaaarrrrgggghhhh, YOU HAVE TO KNOW, IT'S KILLING MEEEE... but well, you're my friend*, and the kopet-ah-oh only talking guy, the girl who dated someone who's already been a husband to someone else, and there's a guy who constantly showed up in my YM every day, the guy that YMed me just to ask why didn't I join him watching 'Akibat Pergaulan Bebas' *errr, menurut looooo???*, etc, etc, etc...
I don't mind being friends with them, because after all, they're the one who could stand me being impulsive. Me being a total lunatic. Me crying my eyes out. Me being serious.
And I do believe with all my *borrowed* heart, each and everyone of them deserve happiness. What ever, how ever, and when ever it is.
So yeah, I might scream, I might kick.punch.stab.toyor2., I might say how stupid you are, I might give you millions of reasons of doing exactly the opposite of what you're doing. But when all the arguing is done, I'll be there to support you. I'll stand behind you.
No worries, cha... I might not be the best friend you would ever know, but I'm giving you an offer of having an anonymous friend. A friend that stays when the show is over.

:)

Senggol Bacok

2010-06-06T23:25:00.002+07:00

If someday... someday... you walk into a room, with me not looking stupid and idle. With me paying attention to something and seems careless about the chaos outside the my world. With me not munching or having the desire to grab something to eat. With me singing random song and headbanging. With me not the regular me.
It's a sign. Ow, yes it is.
Senggol. Bacok. :)

meheheheheheheheeheh muehehehehehehehe...
*yes. midnite craze*

But well. My blood sign doesn't allow me to sit silently for such time. Give me two hours and I'll just close my tabs in my screen and trying to bite someone that passes me by.
That, my friend, is a sign. Ow, yes it is.
Me. Hungry.

huehehehehheeh muhueeeheheheheheh
*moma kan o rang*

And yeah, four years struggling to graduate from architecture has altered me. I get possessive of my works. They're mine! mine! mine! And if something goes wrong, it'll break my heart (hey, wait a sec... I'm heartless... err... whatever it is, I know something's broken... ankle, maybe?). And I won't stop revising. and revising. and revising. Just like the energizer bunny.
It's another sign, Ow yes, it is.
Give.me.deadline.

ohohohohohoho muohohohohoho
*or else. energizer bunny. enough said*

And after my work has finished. I'll still find flaws and criticize with all my heart and soul (err... I don't have any soul too... but well, for the sake of humanity... wait, I'm not even a human... well be it). And eventually I felt retarded for not noticing that error. And I go grumpy.
It's the final sign. Finally, it is.
*senggol.bacok.lagi*

ehehehehehhehehehehe mweheheheheheh
*mulai.joged.dangdut*

---
TiQi Bo
But well... Don't believe what I write... it's just my midnite craze talking...
I summon the power of deadliiiiine! Yeaaaaahhhh!!!!

rescued by the break of day

2010-06-01T00:07:00.001+07:00

and it's after midnite
when i realized
once again
i was saved by the 24 hours boundaries.

me.pathetic.

just a girl after all

2010-05-24T19:42:00.002+07:00

after a day of faking smile in front of everybody
I turn my back towards the empty room.
I'm sick.

Taking the corner seat in that crowded cafe
I stare directly to my screen.
I'm sick.

Taking bus trips pointlessly
I only see those stupid things I did.
I'm sick.

Can somebody offer me a hug right now?
I'm skipping songs in my player just because it brings up the memories
I'm seeking figures to scream at just to let out my rage
I'm crying alone in my room simply because...

I'm a girl after all.
I need a hug.

deep sleep

2010-05-15T11:38:00.002+07:00

Did you know,
some nights ago
I saw you again when I'm asleep.

Did you know,
in that deep sleep of mine
We converse and laugh and hold hands.

Did you know,
I don't hold hands
if I don't feel comfortable enough.

Did you know,
it's been a while
Since you even became a cameo in my deep sleep.

And that night (or almost dawn, who cares),
You, my friend, are the lead star
Once again.

And I woke up feeling,
I woke up trembling,
It was the finale.

Run

2010-05-13T15:53:00.002+07:00

Slower slower
We don't have time for that
All I want is to find an easier way
To get out of our little heads

Have heart my dear
We're bound to be afraid
Even if it's just for a few days
Making up for all this mess

-run, snow patrol-

I had a chat with Genter, a couple of days ago. Genter is a guy who happens to inhabit the office across mine. It's been a while since I had chat with him. Usually we just nod our heads and smile respectfully when we meet in the hallway.
It was early in the morning, when the virtual conversation happens. I can't go back to sleep, and he was available. So, well let's make use of him :) (hmmm, somehow... The last sentence doesn't sound right... hmmm...). Start off with office stuffs. Continued with his latest fans. And end up with what I was doing at the moment.
I signed out for it was my new morning ritual I am going to do (Bukan, bukan pup sambil kayang... walo usul itu, akan saya tampung... :p). He asked me, what was my activity. I didn't have the chance to answered it, but yeah, lately I jog. As you all know, I'm overweight. Nonono, I'm undertall... *que cricket*.
Although jogging lead me to dislocated knees or sprain, or any other minor accident caused by my own stupidity, I started to enjoy the feeling of running away from daily life. I'm bored. A year! I repeat a year! staying in the same office, somehow it's too much for me. I admit, I get bored easily, and it's easy to dictract me also, but I've had it up to here! (pointing my fingers to the top level...).
I talked it down with Genter (yeah, I was pretty high at the time... let's hope Genter didn't remember a single thing I said :p). He felt the same way too. Well, he's been working for two years now, so I don't blame him if he wanted to run from this office as well.
What is wrong with us? Moreover, what is wrong with our office, anyway? All I wanted to do was run. runaway from that office. All I can do now is look for the opportunity. May the force be with me... :p

---
TiQi Bo
eit... Genter, lu tau blog gue yak? Diem2 ya, ooooommmm.... Kalo gak, gue panggilin fans lu niy... *evil laugh*

pausrayalagi!

2010-05-10T23:06:00.003+07:00

Saya menunggu kabar dari Godot hari ini... Tapi tampaknya Godot tak datang. Kenapa Godot? Karena saya pernah membaca buku 'Menunggu Godot', di mana tokoh Godot akan selalu ditunggu, dari awal hingga akhir. Dan Godot tak kunjung datang. Entahlah, kali ini mungkin Godot sedang hibernasi... Hmm, atau tokoh Godot ini akan selalu jadi tokoh fiktif yang kedatangannya ditunggu? Saya ingin bercerita pada Godot, tapi yaaaa.... itu tadiiii, si Godot lagi minta dikunyah2...
Lohloh? Kok jadi terkesan blog yang nggak serius ya? err, well be it... *ehemehem* Jadi, di tengah kesenyapan saya menunggu Godot untuk diceritai (err... itu lah... bahasa Indonesia itu, susah ya?) (Owh, one thingy... I only have one specific person for one specific thingy... So when I decide to tell something to Godot, I'll wait for Godot to show up... That also happened when I wanted to talk to Munyun, or Icung, or well... me...) (err, mestinya ini post dalam bahasa Indonesia, Booooo... *jedot2in kepala*). Ehm, sampe di mana? Oh iya, jadi... sementara saya menunggu Godot, muncullah teman2 bandit semasa saya kecil.
Sebut saja nama mereka mas Adit, Sandi, dan dek Irma, mungkin nama sebenarnya. Tokoh2 yang dulu menemani masa kejahiliyahan saya di negeri antah berantah itu. Tokoh yang sempat hilang di masa remaja saya. Sekarang mereka hadir kembali. Saya menyayangi tokoh2 itu setulus hati saya. Waktu kecil, saya sudah melihat SEMUA... iya, SEMUAAAAA yang mereka punya... Tidur bareng, udah... Mandi bareng, udah... Makan bareng? Udaaaaaahhhh.. Tapi, itu dulu waktu saya masih piyik... Sekarang... hmm, let's just say, those things would've never happen ever again... :p (woi, postingnya bahasa Indonesiaaaaaa...).
Ehm, hal2 bodoh yang sering terjadi adalah sebagai berikut:
1. Mas Adit, kalo nggak lagi nyetir... Ketiduraaaaaan... Ngilaaaang... Batre abis... BB eroooorrr... Ato, yaaa... PAKET COMBO! tinggal pilih lah... yang kayak gini niy, yang jadi ketua suku geng pausraya ini... ya udahlah ya, seadanya diterima aja...
2. Sandi, he's my twin... so, uhm... whaddaya expect? kalo nggak isengnya lagi kumat... begonya lagi kumat... nggak tau malunya lagi kumat... Bisa bikin geleng2 kepala lah... Mungkin efek tinggal di Balongan, jadinya aneh begini. Bentar, kan saya juga aneh ya? Yah, mungkin karena karakteristik saya dan dia hampir sama. Baru saja, kami bubr satu2 gara2 Sandi berinisiatif Tarling di conference YM, dan minta disawer. Apa2an ini??? Yah, itu kembaran saya. Ingatkan saya, kalo saya sayang dia yaaaa....
3. Dek Irma... Sering jadi bahan bercandaan kami... Baru saja putus, jadi semakin sering digoda... *halah*. Hmm, tapi dia tabah kok...
Nothing can replace what I share with them. The insomniac gang... I love them...(et dah, bahasa Indonesiaaaaa). Setiap sesi chatting kami pasti berakhir ricuh dan menyimpang dari tujuan sebenarnya. Jika ada orang lain masuk ke dalam sesi chatting kami, saya bisa dengan yakin mengatakan, orang itu akan bilang: 'autis semua ini'. Karena kami akan saling menyahut dengan cara kami masing2... Mas Adit yang hilang dan tiba2 nongol, Sandi yang selalu melenceng, dek Irma yang berusaha menghubungkan.
Setidaknya, mereka bisa mengalihkan perhatian saya, malam ini. Perhatian tentang sesuatu yang lebih penting... Bagaimana cara menguasai dunia... Bukan begitu, pinky? :p

---
TiQi Bo
*iya, postingan ini juga melenceng dari maksut dan tujuannya*

I.N.V.U

2010-05-09T01:10:00.002+07:00

I'm independent
I'm independent
I'm independent

Those words can't cover how I felt
Those words are shields of my loneliness
Those words are what kept me going on

And today, as my common sense touchdown the ground
I looked away, envying you so.

For that simple thing.
No, I wasn't envying your beauty, or your perfect body, or how smart you are, or how much money you got.
I was envying you, mummy picked you up.

And for that, I felt so lonely for a second.
I wish mummy was here to pick me up.
Take me home the grumpy me.

I'm not faking a smile anymore.
I'm not that independent.
I. N. V. U

it takes two to cuddle :p

2010-05-01T14:02:00.003+07:00

I'm in love all over again, with How I met Your Mother series... :p
I like the part (early seasons) when Barney introduced himself as Ted. 'Hi, Ted Mosby. Architect', with confidence. Just to prove that Architects are sexy. Don't ask me about the truth of Architect's sexy-ness *halah* :p.
OK, that... the text you just read above has nothing to do with my post though >:). I just took the title from How I Met Your Mother :D.
I just need to convince myself about that words, though... That cuddling always takes two. *just don't try to imagine cuddling by yourself. just don't*. Me, the girl who can't be moved. Especially by the love of human beings. I have my fullest empathy to electronic gadgets and pets :p.
I don't know. Things like feeling and behaving are not my specialties. I'm harsh. I'm unreachable. I'm a loner. And I know how big the efforts need to be made, just to make me realized that I'm being cared, being loved. And still, after realizing, I'd still let them down for ignoring their existence.
Just keep them coming to me, the feelings I mean. I'd eventually realize. After years of patience, you might get my attention. You just might get lucky.
Err... or not?

---
TiQi Bo
*iya, postingannya aneh... ah, sudahlah*

question marks

2010-04-22T00:16:00.003+07:00

Why don't you believe?
When I said the right things about me.
The true self that lies beneath.

Why must it be inherited?
Printed in all of my documents.
But not in my physical self.

What is left to judge?
The reflection I see every single time in the mirror.
The shadow I stepped on every single day.

I am who I am.
Not asking to be proven.
Not wanting to be claimed.

---
TiQi Bo

life.period.

2010-04-18T22:02:00.002+07:00

I flew back to my parents hometown this weekend. The weekend that me and mas Dhanar has planned for so long to make it a date with mbak Anggun. After planning for so long, it was decided, that I'll have a date with mas Dhanar on Saturday and mbak Anggun would join us on Sunday.
There are a lot of things way beyond human measurements. And last week, I don't even know how God works. Because me, Icong, and Andun finally had our date. The date wasn't what we even expect in our wildest dreams, but it did happen.
I was gathering my scattered souls in saturday morning, when mbak Anggun gave me a call. The call was only 'Dek, nyokap gue jatoh...' and she was crying when she called me. I said that I'll be there ASAP. I had my silent moment and called mas Dhanar. Off we went to mbak Anggun's place.
As we stroll in, mbak Anggun's mum was already gone.
I don't like death. Not for the fact that it is certain for every one, I just don't like the fact that no one could tell how was it like. One thing I know, human being could cheat for almost everything, but they could never cheat death.

Budhe Wiek, saya memanggilnya.
Anak ketiga dari kakek dan nenek saya.
Saudara ibu saya yang paling santai sedunia.
Budhe saya yang mengajak saya ke Ragunan, pertama kalinya dalam hidup saya.

Kata Ibu saya, si Budhe banyak akal.
Tak mau dia meminum obat2annya, yang kemudian diminumkan kepada Ibu saya
Diberi hanya punggung oleh nenek saya, karena selalu ada yang lebih kecil yang meminta pelukan

Budhe saya, yang tak pernah alpa membawa burung belibis ketika berkunjung ke Solo
Yang pada lebaran tahun ini berlari mengejar foto keluarga besar
'Saya harus ikut berfoto', katanya

Saya pikir, si Budhe akan selamanya ada.
Akan selalu menggerutu ketika anaknya saya culik untuk balik tengah malam
Akan selalu meminta dielus2 kakinya
Akan selalu menawari saya untuk sarapan ketika saya berkunjung
Akan selalu berusaha melarang saya memakan mie instan
Akan selalu protes ketika saya membawa minuman berwarna

Saya angkuh.
Karena tepat hari ini, 17 April 2010, dicukupkanlah waktunya di dunia.
Berhentilah semua kegiatannya di sekitar saya.
Kembali pada rengkuhan bumi.

Saya tak sempat mengucap maaf. Atas semua ucap dan pikir saya.
Saya tak sempat berpamitan.

Budhe, you really do look beutiful and peaceful yesterday.
I'll let you go for heaven's door is waiting.

---
Tikki Mahayanti
RIP: Sartanti (1952 - 17 April 2010)

NKOTB

2010-04-13T20:43:00.002+07:00

This year, my office got two new comers. They're in the same status as I was a year ago. Both of them came from UGM, the university I went. Aboed went to Architecture, same thing like me and Corry went to plan-no-logic :p.
Eager young minds, I like to say to myself about them. They're so enthusiastic of things going on in the office, just like what I used to be *I vomit a bit :p*. (OOT: Michael Buble's Everything is on the go... trying so hard not to hit 'next' button). 3 months now, and they're starting to question their existence in the office. Well, uhm... err... Have nothing to say about that, but here's somethings they ask me :) (of course, along came my answers... Hopefully they didn't fall for my tricky answers)

NKOTB: So, what's the working hours, to be exact?
Bo: Uhm, 8 - 4, like you already know.
NKOTB: But the office's still locked.
Bo: Well, 8 - 4 is for the PNS, and the one that holds the key is non PNS :|
NKOTB: So, we should wait?
Bo: No, you came AFTER the keyholder came.
NKOTB: And what time?
Bo: Let's say... After 8? :p

NKOTB: Do we have to do these things ASAP?
Bo: Do you see it as important thing?
NKOTB: Uhm, not really. I got things to do.
Bo: Here's the thing. Don't do things that you can do today, if you could put it off till tomorrow.
NKOTB: Really?
Bo: Even better, let the boss decide which one's more important. :)

NKOTB: How does the system works?
Bo: What?
NKOTB: Who should I listen to? Two bosses, each with their own antics
Bo: Learn fast. You'd see.
NKOTB: And I shouldn't tell these matters to anyone outside the office?
Bo: Hmm. Learn faster.
NKOTB: What?
Bo: This boss here, is where your tasks came from. And that boss there, is where you should nod, and smile, and listen to your heart. >:)

NKOTB: I see my friends with their new gadgets. Why can't I have those?
Bo: Have you count your income?
NKOTB: Yeah. Should be enough to buy me something new. But I spent them on food. Useless.
Bo: Hmm... No worries. Just don't starve yourself to death.
NKOTB: But, I also wanted those things!
Bo: *banging my heads* save moneeey! As simple as that!

And these persons, my friend, are your future government officer *plus one devilish untamed mind*

---
TiQi Bo

Boss: You're wearing glasses now?
Bo: Uhm, yeah.. *rolling eyes*
Boss: Looks like goggles
Bo: *not giving any responds*
Boss: So, what's the prescription?
Bo: There's nothing wrong with my eyes... It's my minus behavior, they said.
Boss: Ow...

Holding on

2010-04-09T20:57:00.002+07:00

Don't turn away
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Don't be afraid
But keep it all inside, all inside
When you fall apart
Dry your eyes, dry your eyes
Life is always hard
For the Belle of the Boulevard

-Belle of the boulevard, Dashboard confessional-

For now? I like this song so much... Too bad I can't sing it out loud in the office. Not that I became dumb in the office, it's just that my office is kinda a normal office *ya, menurut lu, Boooo?*, where I wasn't suppose to wear my earphone and do headbanging on my own chair... But well, I did that... :p
I don't do facebook so much nowadays. But I still open it regularly every single day, just to read messages I receive from Balz. Balemoterz... My early college friends. 7 girls. Sometimes it's too much for me, to listen them talking. But I missed them, so bad. Hmm, let's see... Ulit is now a mother of two gorgeous sons (Ali and Adin, be good to Mummy ok, she has left many unspoken and spoken dreams to have you guys), Eiy the popodanes architect in Bali, Dedeq the Bensley overtime architect in Bali, Puta the *lost* government officer, Bie and Yuyu the on the track architects. Each of them has their own problems to deal and that message was a place where we all could say the problems out loud. You see, we girls, don't need any feed back, we just need to make sure everybody's listening and gave us the support.
From the message, I can see *and eventually read* that they are planning to settle down with their life and guys, well except for Ulit(and me.. :p). Time does flies, don't they? Five years ago, girls... I still laugh when I remembered the good old days. The inside jokes, the intrigues, the life we lived.
I mean, who would've thought, Ulit is very capable of raising two boys?! TWO BOYS, OEL!!!! And still on her way to earn her master degree. Made me hold up my tears today when I almost broke down when my boss gave away the seminar tickets to the other staff. Yes, I'm in my sentimentil agogo mode today. Well be it, if it's meant to be, it'll always return to me. Right now, I am just sending my prayers to my boss, may he retire soon :p.
Dedeq, apart from her childish look, she is one hell of a woman. Trying to face the world for a guy. Hey, for me, religions are private matter. But for the common people, it's like the first thing to see from a guy (bibit, bebet, bobot, eh... yang penting, dia solat jumat kan? *krikrikrik*).
Eiy is always the tough girl. Staying put in Bali for Yayak. whoaaa, I'm not sure I could do that. She sid she loves the guy, and I believed that.
Yuyu is building her own clothing shop. While she still works as an architect. Made me believe, I haven't tried hard enough. Because if I tried so hard, there's no such thing as impossible.
Bie, the kerupuk lover. She has always been the mature one. She stayed on track on what she wanted. Nice thingy, huh?
Puta is a government officer now. But she's thinking of stepping out from these bureaucrazy thingy. We're right beside you, to hold you. :)

I once again count my blessings. It's countless, if you ask me. Even though my life may seem like a total mess with me being in the center, I like to see it as order in chaos. So here I am, drying up my tears, stretching another smile. I know You're never there, God... Because you're always here, with me. :)

---
TiQi Bo
Kamu tau nggak Balemot itu apa? Balemot itu kelinci, tapi kupingnya tujuuuuh, matanya tujuuuuuh, kakinya tujuuuuh. Aku juga nggak yakin itu namanya apa, tapi aku kasih nama dia Balemot. :))

catching up

2010-04-05T21:43:00.003+07:00

Life...
it's not a period until you're dead.

I've been down for quite some time. Well yeah, I still stretch a smile on my face and laugh at my misfortunate events in my life, but I've been feeling awfully wrong all these times. I don't know what's wrong, it just doesn't seem right.
So I finally break down in tears, to the only person I allow to see me in my full emotion, a person who have seen my ups and downs, a person who's been there all along watching me making my own mistakes, a person I call 'mum'.
I kept my secrets from her most of the times now, saying everything's fine, and life has been grand for me. But last weekend, I cracked a bit of my secrets. And she was there to hold me, to give me the comfort I need.
She told me, that I always been a stubborn-straight-to-the-point child ever since I was born, and I inherit that from my Dad. Hey, at least I inherit something from my Dad! :) She said, I'm still young, and changing the world, is still beyond my reach. But still, I wanted to change the world, make them see things from my point of view. Something that is not mainstream.
Yeah, I breakdown to her about my job. It's not that I don't like my job. I'm starting to take the fact that I will be tied here at least for 20 years. That's not it. I just don't like how they do the job. I take my jobs seriously, in my own way.
She offered me again to move to her office. As I recall, this is the 3rd time she said the thing seriously to me. And I'm beginning to consider about it. But no, I know a person in the office whose father work at my mum's office, and he dragged his son to his office. I mean, enough, this circle of oh-i-think-i-know-you-and-your-parents-as-well has to stop. Am not moving to my mum's or dad's office. No. I'll stay here, until I've had enough.
I did some catch up with Munyun as well. The one friend Mummy think has it all. As she talk, I wander. Look at this girl, she has the brain, the face, and a perfect family. But still, she's a brainless, faceless, and careless about her family when it comes to guys. Everyone has things to complain about.
So, yeah, shit happens. For me? It;s the person I work for. And I just hope I don't give up quite soon.

If you can't change the world, then change yourself to suit the world.
Me, I'll be the outcast, and I will change the world.

---
TiQi Bo

nada doa*

2010-03-06T00:55:00.000+07:00

tuhan aku memohon
terangi jiwa ini
biarkan ku berdiri
hapus air mata hati

izinkan ku berjanji
lepaskan diri ini
biarkan ku berlari
hapus mimpi-mimpi perih

-* nada doa, cokelat

i'm taking a break again off this blog.
i've got a life to catch up
a mind to be settled
and a heart to be firmed

and at times like this, You are the one that crossed my mind...
sorry i neglected You (again) all these times...
let's catch up, You :)

---
Tikki Mahayanti
it won't be long, i hope. :)

5 years has pass us by

2010-02-23T22:49:00.001+07:00

i had the chance to meet heni, ucil, dut, and kur last weekend... usual stuff, updating life we had.
heni just got back from Bali. She finally resigned from Giani-Mauro (did I spell it correct? ow well...), and quit being Jerry's puppies babysitter... :p.
Ucil, still the jidatterangbenderangsampesilau girl... cut off her hair, which she regret. (her fiancee said the hair cut was good, though.. right afterwards he said, 'but you look better in long hair') (hmmm, for girls? it's a sign of... botakin aja rambut gueeee... botakiiiiin).
Dut, she's still engaged to Kur2, altough I'm worried for their future.. :p
Michie wasn't there. He was in Yogya, re-living our old days. Eating in flamboyan, crossing by Sendok Djaja! :). Hmm, which made my mind flew to 5 years ago...
We shared our dreams. And we believed in our dreams. The dreams that we will be successful in our own way. Those dreams that we chased until this very day.
Who would've thought? 5 years ago we would be crying if we spill our watercolor on our precious paper. 5 years ago, a C- would've mean like the world would stumble down upon us. 5 years ago, taking a 5 mins shower would have give us a different result on handing our assignments. 5 years ago, 5000 would mean a one day meal. 5 years ago...
I smiled. and look at my friends now. We've been sitting in the same spot for more than 5 hours. Updating our lives. We may disagree on things, but hey, at the end, we're friends after all. After 5 years, we're still here. We may not have the same kind of friendship like we had 5 years ago, but well... who ever really counted the days we've passed anyway? flaws does exist, no worries, no one ever counted the exact numbers... :)

---
TiQi Bo
and if you girls think I would say a word about my private life, you should think again... :)

you.me.DEBATE!!!.yeah.

2010-02-18T21:12:00.001+07:00

and i just realized something, lately.
i love debating.
and i don't like loosing.

but loosing to you?
that's fine with me :)

because i've give my whole effort
and my whole tolerance :p

and i learnt something, every time we argued.
way beyond my own secure world, there's always another secure place.
and it doesn't always come in the fancy kinds of shelter. :)

---
TiQi Bo
i believe, old dogs can still learn new tricks :)

showing compassion

2010-02-13T12:09:00.003+07:00

I may not be able to give you those sweet words you wanted to hear, but I promise you these are what you need to hear..
I may not be able to give you full attention as you were talking, but I promise you these ears are doing their job, listening not hearing..
I may not be able to give you affections you got from other person, but I promise you these arms are always open to hold you when you're down..

You may not be able to see me in a crowd, but I promise you, I'll be there when the show is over..
You may not be able to see me chat restlessly about how you succeed, but I promise you, I'll give you a pat in your back, the support that you need..
You may not be able to see me remembering all the major events in your life, but I promise you, I'll let you know the details..

And you can thank me later
For showing compassion in a way you never have a clue.

---
TiQi Bo
hey you, it's not that I don't care about the matters you told me. I just think they're stupid. They're your past. Deal with it, and move on.

when I'm not myself

2010-02-06T15:47:00.001+07:00

'would you want me, when I'm not myself?'
That was my status on my YM these days (and please do ignore my '72 hours of straight sleep' status :p).
Some people on my YM list took attention to the status, which was totally random. Well, what do you expect anyway? They're my friends... :)
1. 'Isn't that something nicole kidman said in 'nine'?'. Uhm, I would probably wish I was Nicole Kidman, haha. But well, I remembered the scene. She said something like that, took off her wih, and walk away from Daniel Day Lewis. Nice scene. The man had this fantasy about her, and she turned it upside down.
2. 'Somebody's been listening to John Mayer'. Well, yeah. The 'room for squares' album, not the 'continuum' :p. I had some bad memories with the 'continuum'. It was the album that accompanied me all the way from Cijerah to Turangga on my motorbike, the day I decide, this is it. Let's just move on. Move to Bali and write down a brand new page. 'continuum', one hell of an album! I love all the songs, but I prefer not to listen to them on purpose. 'I'm gonna do some things, you wouldn't let me do. I'm gonna find another you.' :p
3. 'you've grown'. Wha? Whaaaa? I did take that as a compliment, thank you very much! :D Well, not until the person pop the q of 'are you planning to get married soon?', and I still answered the q with 'what kind of food is marriage?'. He laughed, 'you're still the same!'. Sigh, quite a friend, thank you very much! *bite!* But yeah, there are some things I wanted to achieve before I think about that matter. One of them is watching King graduate from that bloody university! *evil laugh*
4. 'It's not about physical things. I see your inner thing'. Errr... thank you (?), kiddo. I don't think you were suppose to say that to me *watching my back, worried his girlfriend would show up and stab me repeatedly*. I said 'I won't take you, in any condition you have' :|. That kid needs to get married soon and move on with his life (would be better if he also move out from Jakarta :p).
Well, thank God no one said 'i hope no one wants you' *krikrikrik* :p.
I was just listening to John Mayer's 'not myself'. Along with his new album. And uhm, 'continuum' (and skip the 'continuum' songs).

---
TiQi Bo
'hoping I could see the world through both my eyes'
3x5, room for squares.

tomorrow

2010-02-03T23:55:00.005+07:00

Tonight, as I put my buttocks on the floor of my room, I felt goddamn tired. Tired of smiling. Tired of looking happy. Tired of showing fake passion.
I wanted to scream out. Wanted to run away from reality. Wanted to do something impulsive.
But then I realized. Romo Mangun's story.
I stretched a smile again.
That's all I got.
Since having a pretty face is out of the option.

Then I remembered. Maya Angelou's poem.
I stretched another smile.
Every woman is phenomenal in her own way.

Not to mention the stories my friends had
I stretched my smile again
I needed a bigger heart to absorb all of them.

What am I complaining about, anyway?
My job? be it. Tomorrow's another day.
My life? be it. Tomorrow's another story.
My problems? Be it. Tomorrow's another hectic situation.

I'm just not doing so great these days.
Hopefully I can still cover it up with a smile.
And tomorrow's a brand new day!

---
TiQi Bo

and I said I was mature enough

2010-02-01T23:42:00.001+07:00

I attended my friend's wedding yesterday. A real complicated and hitting my nerves story to tell from the beginning.
I said 'what the fuck' to my friend. Something I never did to her in this past seven years. She was a decent woman, and me? I'm a rebel girl. She was the one who gave me somewhere to run when I had problems. She was a place to have my nap, when my room looked like a total mess *usually happens in the end of semester, facing my exams :p*. She never mind I never spoke anything about my problems. She was there to make me realize how silly my problems were. I should never said those words to this fine young woman.
I looked back to our seven years friendship. I always had this picture in my mind, she would have a 'normal' kind of wedding. With a guy that she really loved. And every body came and gather around. And I was able to take candids of them. I always love how couples glow when they're together. And I also love the food in the parties. :p
And there I was, carrying my cimot *the thing that I was suppose to introduce to her in a more casual occasion*, meeting my friend in her make up room. I smiled. She panicked. For the first time, I saw her talking pointlessly, the thing that I did the past seven years to her. It was an important day to her. The day she turned into somebody's other half.
As her relatives took over the room, I slipped out. I'm not good with crowds. I came out and looked at her husband-to-be. Nervous as he could be. He looked at me, and smile. I knew them better than most of the people in the place.
It wasn't a perfect wedding. They haven't held a party to celebrate it. But hey, who am I to judge?
They asked me to shut my mouth about their wedding. So I did. Although I think this good news must be spread out.
And here I am, looking at their wedding pictures. Crossing my fingers and sent my prayers for them. Hopefully they could make it all the way through. Till death do they apart. Amen.

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TiQi Bo
*and she smiles sincerely just for the guy. Magnificent*

if a secret makes a woman

2010-01-28T22:11:00.004+07:00

Mummy, I have a confession
But before, did you remember that a secret makes a woman?
Well, I'm one hell of a woman, alright...

Mummy, I need to confess
But before, did you remember that white lies are forgivable?
Well, you can say, I'm a saint...

Mummy, please listen to me confessing
But before, did you remember that making other people smile is a good thing?
Well, I have a great amount of saving of good things...

Mummy, here's a thing
I'm no immaculate person, that we know
I'm no good at saving anything, that we know
I'm not even a complete woman yet, that we also know

Mummy, I don't need to say a thing, don't I?
You know it all.
You just don't know the details.

And for that...
That's why sometimes they call me a woman...

I love you Mummy! :)

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TiQi Bo

coffee + aspirin = trance

2010-01-25T22:55:00.002+07:00

i had a migrain today. No, it started yesterday, when I took a little too much sleep on my weekend. I thought it was normal thingy, less sleep. So I took more sleep. But when I woke up this morning, my head is not in it's normal behavior.
So I took a pill. A happy pill. So I could stretch a smile and take things light. Still able to take jokes. In return, my head felt like it was dropping on a pillow right away.
And here goes my stupidity. I took cups of coffee. Which, unfortunately, not in the same party as the pill. So there goes my contradiction.
Don't tell me how stupid I am, cos I already know. Sometimes I'm impulsive, that I know too.
The thing is, today I met my paus raya friends -family, they're family for me-, when I'm in trance. And there goes my stupid mouth, spoiling things I'm not even sure of.
Mas Adit, as the chief of the gang warned me. I'm 24 this year. I should be looking for a stable thingy. And by his own words, stop being 'pethakilan'. Haha, I burst out laughing. I mean, that's just the way I am. For all this time he knew me, he dare to tell me to grow up.
But for some reasons, I look up at him. He's just a year apart from me, and he took all the responsibilities upon him. He's even planning to settle down *ouch*.
I don't know what's keeping me to take things seriously. But I am dealing it in my own way. I just felt like sometimes I lost my direction. I have no clue where am I heading. It's true what he said, I'm just a kid.
And for return, I listen carefully as he told me about his relationship. How he had fall to the same problem of switching sunday to friday. He said, he tried. Hard enough. but the world was agaisnt him. Friday is before saturday, and Sunday is after Saturday. Isn't life's a bitch, mas? When you think that you've found that someone, the days were fooling you.
So, here I am. Laying in my trance thoughts. Wondering what life would I have. Projecting my steps. *Did that after I knew the one I was trying to call is asleep... tongseng is indeed more powerful than aspirin + coffee... If only I ate lambs...*
I thought, what if saturday never existed? The one day barrier vanished, and friday could live side by side with sunday? So, after you face west, you go to see a statue? Argh...

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TiQi Bo
I know you're asleep. I know you're sick. This is just ego speaking. I want you to listen to it. :)

Mood swings

2010-01-22T00:27:00.002+07:00

I'm a subject of mood swing. Trust me :).
And it got worse when I could blame it all to my hormonal stuffs.
I just don't show it to normal human being. And a stretch on my face just kept me have-fun-go-mad.
There's only two options when I show you my grumpy face and my mood swings.
Whether you're not a normal human being to me or I forgot to bring my happy pill.

Trust me. Today, when I totally lost you of what to do? It's because you're not just some normal human being for me :)

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TiQi Bo
*and I'm blaming it on my hormones :p*

what i see from a man

2010-01-17T23:20:00.001+07:00

Saturday night. Again, a date with the moronerz. This time, we skip mas Joko and moved to Burger and Grill. Stayed there untul 12, and talked like there were 48 hours in a day.
I like the fact that I'm a minority there. And that they're chinese. Gave me a new perspective and different way of seeing things.
We talked about everything. But what matters the most was when Kur and Michie asked what does me and Magda (represent female species) see from a guy as a potential husband.
Me personally haven't think about it. But how a guy look, doesn't bother me much. I mean, I really don't mind if someday Brad Pitt or Nicholas Saputra fall for me, but well, let's save that to my daydreams... :p
We came up with a conclusion. A stable income, A place to live, and A vehicle. Those are what us, female, saw from a guy. Apart from being able to laugh at our bitter jokes and made us laugh at his jokes :p.
A stable income, means the guy could afford my life style (which includes watching movies, dine out, unreasonable love for gadgets :p). A place to live, means the guy could made me say and feel 'I got a place to come home to' (and replace my parent's house as 'a place to come home to' :)). A vehicle, means the guy doesn't depend much on public transportation or anybody else to take the both of us to places (and yeah, a motorcycle is considerable... Kur and Mich, you both own this, right?). Basic things to survive, I guess. I think, me and Magda are being reasonable. We didn't ask for a guy to own 3 storeys house with minimum of 1000 sqm or a guy who's position is principal arcitect or a guy who owns a ferarri, right?
Kur, what have you own? You'll be somebody's hubby in 2 months. Not just a somebody, this is my friend we're talking about. You shouldn't mess things up, OK?
Michie, what you need is, my friend, a girl to motivate you. Not another gadget :p. Gadgets? leave it to me!!! (posessive).

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TiQi Bo

more than a world to fight

2010-01-12T22:03:00.001+07:00

tell my broken heart
tell my dreams apart
i'll be alright
i'll be alright

just a broken heart
not a world to fight
obvious this time
i'll be alright
(anggun - i'll be alright)

this song used to be my ringtone, before i switch my cell into silent mode most of the time
what does it mean?
it means that i've silent my heart for most of the time since that time. i forgot since when.
sammy and i broke up, and he returns the files i stored. The mp3s, the texts, the pics. Made me memorize of how naive I was, expecting a person to share the same belief as I do.
I've quit the game now. Because no matter how hard I tried, I still couldn't change white to black.
So, I think it's about time, Sammy left me. Perfect timing, if I must say. And Sammy could just take those memorabilia with him.
I've found myself a better one.
Haven't found any ringtone to fill in, but at least, I don't need a world to fight anymore... :)

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TiQi Bo

flat line

2010-01-06T20:38:00.002+07:00

There you were, online. And as I expected, you said 'hi'.

You asked how I was doing. And I said 'congratulations on your new *dream* job'

You asked how I knew. And I said I am a psychic now.

You really want to know? Because you text me.

You have the guts to text me, and say 'hi' when you're online.

I know something good happened to you. I just knew.

I know you'd be someone successful. You just don't believe in yourself.

That's why I left.

you, you don't believe in dreams.

And I, I live to make my dreams real.

There you go. A flat line.

A period.

stupidity with moroners

2010-01-06T09:33:00.003+07:00

After months of not meeting Moroners, I finally met them last night. Kur's taking us to see Avatar in 3D, neglecting the fact that Michie and I both have seen the movie.
I was the first one to arrive at PS, since my office *and my heart just stopped beating when I wrote the word 'office' to the place where I am hanging on at the moment... dammit* in only 15 mins away from PS *either way, walking or taking a cab, it is still 15 mins away, I guess... the traffic light on the intersection were counted down in lightyears period*. I came to see Magda in her office *yeah, that show room of yours, babe? It's your office.. :)*, said merry *late* christmas and happy new year, and strolled off to grab some snacks.
Until the movie started, Kur and Michie haven't showed up. Typical. After years knowing them, I know that Michie would be arriving at least two hours from the appointment schedule *lebay*. The movie was, uhm... awesome, I guess... OK, I admit, I fell asleep during the movie. three hours, mate! I repeat... THREEEEEE HOUUUUURRRRSSSS... plus, I've seen the movie, even though it's not in 3D.
Well, it wasn't the movie I'm looking forward last night. It was the chitchat afterwards. No matter how boring the movie we were watching, they always succeed taking out the fun facts out of it. As for Avatar? They would start to talk in idon'tknowwhat language and end the conversation with hissing sound which we have just learnt from the movie. We're a fast learner, mwahahaha...
We also yelled p**is out loud in PS' food court, just to copy (500) days of summer. Real genius. One thing about (500) days of summer, Magda asked why do they call it an architect movie. Michie and I said that IT IS! Kur was taking Magda's side and ask us, which part? and we said, at the end of the movie, the guy met Autumn in an architect firm... the end. *krikrikrik* But well, I think (500) days of summer describes architect's way of thinking. And believe me, it's weird. We did weird things on purpose =p
I love sitting on a table with them. I don't need to say a word, they'd know how to react on my every expression. I love hugging all of them. I am comfortable being one of them.

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TiQi Bo
aduh, tapi kalo sifat2 cengceng-nya udah keluar, ampuuun... kopetnyaaaaaa... =p

Backpacker borju

2010-01-01T23:09:00.012+07:00

disclaimer: this post is similar to what Ayu has posted before in her blog. Well, this is my side of story. Enjoy!

I have been willing to write this trip down since last month, but I guess I'm a pro procrastinator :p

I was in Bali last month, for a(n almost) mission impossible event held by Roro Jonggrang. I was there as one of his genies, trying to fix things up before he came at dawn :p. Enough with Roro Jonggrang, as he will not be reading my blog, and that's not the point of my entry.

Dewi asked me whether I would like to join her to go to Lombok for a day, before we head back to our homes. I said yes, without knowing who is going to be in the trip. I wanted to go back to Lombok. The last time I went there was in 2006, if I'm not mistaken. Along with my architecture friends. So, yeah, definitely, I would love to see Lombok again.

Dewi offered snorkeling and visiting sasak village as our activity there. I said no to sasak village trip, because the village was artificial *well, it's cool though... you should check it someday* and I declined snorkeling for the sake of my skin color :p nah, I always loved the sea... I'm afraid if I swam, I would never got out of that giant bathtub... and besides, I'm trying to keep this trip from my mum, and it won't work if I got sunburn!

Dewi is a supermom! she arranged things and go down to the details! Well, if she leave the things to me, we will never have the trip :p. And at that time, I found out that Ayu and Pilas were going as well. *OK, I need a pause here... and then, I pressed rewind...* Ayu and Pilas were going as well... Mehh, all the sudden I felt that this trip is going to be mad, in a good way.

By the time we head to the airport, we became fugitives... We planned this as a runaway trip, but the timing wasn't right. Seems that little tiny weeny Ngurah Rai airport was full of persons from our office. We have to watch our backs in case we ran into somebody *which we did, thanks to the 'coast clear' moment and the 'corner seats in a coffeeshop' moment :p*

Pilas talked me down about my 'kecipakkecipuk' wish when we were in the airplane. Whoa, that 20 mins of flight sure is the most hilarious flight I ever had. Pilas' good at giving 'the look'. Soon enough, at the same time when I was laughing, I agreed to do snorkeling.

We spent our night at a hotel, in Senggigi beach. The hotel was fine, but 4 person sleeping in 2 single beds? trust me, you better sleep on the floor or push the other three out from the bed! :p Hey, look at the bright part... travelling with these girls, we're far from the word 'rempong'. I mean, seriously, we didn't complain at all about the hotel's condition, the breakfast, the cidomo, the people staring at us... We even bring our own stuffs! But well, we were picky about transportation though. We chose pak Zakirin (081933155282) as our taxi driver and our tour guide. He's totally recommended! And he drives bluebird! another recommended thing in Lombok!

We went off to the three Gilis in a rented boat. We got Edi as our underwater tour guide. The first Gili was Gili Trawangan. The island was not as loud as Kuta, but it's not a place of sanctuary either... =) There are too many people though. And I don't like to be starred at, so let's just skip Gili Trawangan. Ow, there were a turtle conservation in the island. An old guy was the caretaker and it was an independent thingy. Drop by, and donate, for the sake of turtles! =)

Uhm, we only stop by to take some narcissistic shots on Gili Meno. But you could also go snorkeling there. And Edi told us that there's a bird park in the island. The tickets for the bird park is 40K IDR, so we skipped it =D

It was in Gili Air we had our lunch. Fresh fish and rubbertaste squid. It was great though. The texture of fresh captured fish was sooooo deliciosoooo!!!! *drooling* And off we went to go snorkeling again. The underwater view was great, and there I go, being a fish! I didn't want to get out of the sea! =D.

Too bad, the corals in the Gilis were broken by human footsteps. Just make sure you put on your life vest if you can't swim well. That was the moral of this snorkeling trip. And yeah, age does matter so much in swimming, trust me... :p Ow, thanks Pilas to talk me down and the swimsuit I borrowed! =p

I'll be back someday... =)

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TiQi Bo

Uhm, because of the sunburn, I became darker than I use to be. My mum found out about this escape, and I told her everything. I'm guilty as charged! =p

Mummy suggested me to change my hobby, but well. let's see about that...

what's been happening

2010-01-01T22:34:00.002+07:00

2009 has just pass me by. Loads of things happened through out the year, and with my short term memory syndrome, here's some things I could type down.

1. Started to work in a place where I'll be hanging on to the next 20 years or so.

Not exactly what I've planned, to have a fixed job by 2009, but well... Life's one big joke, right? The job's kinda boring, but hey... I got a really flexible dateline :D *gak usah komen, gue masih sering gak bisa juga, kalo diajak ngumpul... gak usah komeeeeen...*

2. Still got troubles with my own name.

Damned bureaucrazy... Where do those people go to school anyway? Even when I've write my name down, they got it wrong! *inhale - exhaaaaaaaale*

3. Trips trips and tricked :p

Loved the travelling part this year, although God seemed to trick myself to got into the trips, but am still enjoying my travelling time. Hopefully, I got a better chance of travelling in 2010.

4. Broken Sammy

Yes, Sammy finally quit on me. The expire date of our relationship has come. Am still finding a replacement for Sammy :) It was a great 3 years, Sammy... I loved you :)

5. Cimot's birth

I think I humiliated Ayu, when she accompanied me to buy Cimot. Thank you, mate. And ever since I have Cimot by my side, he's always gone to the extreme places. I love you, Cimot! :)

6. A piece of land in front of the graveyard.

I know it sound scary, but hey... the graveyard belongs to my ancestor! So if I finally set my mind to build a house there, there'll be load of relatives dropping by. *gak usah tanya, keliatan apa ndak... ndak usaaaaah...*

I guess that was it... the highlight of my 2009. I wanted to write down some names, but the story's still on going... :)

Well, still the story of my life... Meeting persons on the crossroads of my life... Some of them left, and some of them stayed a little while with me. I thank those persons for every single step they have taken with me. See you again in another crossroad! :)

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TiQi Bo

hey, you... your cellphones are inactive... :(

I'm not good at words

2009-12-29T23:12:00.002+07:00

Let me just be there

To look at you clearly

To smile at you dearly

Tell me about your dreams

Tell me about your life

Tell me about you

In return

I'd let you know how I react to your stories

I'd let you be the first to know

I won't tell you about my life in return

But if you hang long enough and be patient

I'm sure, I won't have to tell you about it

Of how I enjoyed my life

Of the things that made me laugh

Of the state that only I could understand

So let me just be there

And hopefully you'd hang on long enough here beside me

To know it all

A chat with munyun

2009-12-24T23:08:00.003+07:00

I knew Munyun since like, uhm... forever! Yet, she never fails to surprise me in any different ways. I guess, that's why we're still friends... Because it's fun! :D

Today, I met Munyun... well, not exactly... We made up a plan of meeting each other since she said, I've missed 8 seasons of her life.. :)) Nah, I just wanted to talk to her, it's been a while since we've updated each other's life.

And I, as a great and loyal friend, didn't mind meeting her in Yogya, altough I've been avoiding Yogya since last year... Well, at least I got Munyun to cover me up if something or someone showed up :p

There we were, in the blue avanza (sejak kapan brubah jadi avanza lagi? prasaan kemaren lu bilang, lu di yogya bawa starlet...), me sitting in the navigator seat and Munyun in driver's seat... (all the sudden, I became religious sitting next to her, while she ws driving :D)

She told me the story and I tried to pay attention to her without bursting any jokes (well, it failed, OK? I can't allocate my attention fully on one subject...) When it was my time to speak, the first thing I said was, 'you deserve a way more better life than this, Munyun'

See the picture above? That's Munyun. I mean, a girl like her could have any guy that she wants! But again, Munyun has succeeded to surprise me by sticking to a pointless relationship with idon'thaveanyideawherethehellareyougoing guy.

This thing brought me back to the time when we were still in Junior high. I envy Munyun with all my heart, I really do. I mean, she's smart, she's beautiful, what more can you ask? I thought she would end up with a decent guy and got married before 25, had a wonderful career and 2 beautiful kids.

Look where you are right now, Nyun... Your trouble? Just go, Nyun... RUN! don't look back, don't even think of it again. You've crossed the line you draw again and again. Are you sure you're ready with all the consequences, Nyun? Because me, personally, I'd leave the guy. But here I am, being a supportive friend, so anything you finally chose to do, just DON'T act stupid again! inget emak-bapak lu, onyooooon...

anyway, of course, here come the stupid part:

Munyun: So, now that you've met each other, any idea who is Kevin, Bo?

Bo: uhm, no...

Munyun: COME OOOOON!!! the guy's right in front of youuuuu! A friend from AMBON!

Bo: No, have no idea...

Bo: It's OK if we got lost...

Munyun: I don't trust your words...

Bo: Just trust me. We could just stop and ask... my verbal abilit is above average!

Munyun: SERIOUSLY?! *rolling eyes*

Bo: Yeah, but I need your ears, since mine are broken...

*krikrikrik*

Munyun: Tell me when you see any fruit shop

Bo: Ah, there it is!

Munyun: Where? Where?!

Bo: Right over there! The guy who's selling jackfruit!

Munyun: Stupid... we came to sick my uncle at the hospital! You think it's cute to bring jackfruit?!

Bo: Yeah... :D

Bo: Stop here! we'll just bring DURIAN!!!

Munyun: Nah, thanks... I'll lost the taste of ribs if I eat that durian...

*mahasiswa miskiiiiin :))*

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TiQi Bo

Here I am again

2009-12-19T12:08:00.003+07:00

I thought that I would be fine stepping my sneakers back on this island again.
After all, A year has passed me by.
But when the airplane touched the runway last night.
There's something inside of me screaming, waiting to be unleashed.

And there I was, having my silent moment along the way to my hotel.
The same road I travel a dozen times year ago.
Brings me up the memory, of how I first came to this place and left it in hurry.

There are regrets in me. I should've wait for another year, I should've failed at the test, I should've NOT even try the test.
But that was my options back then, not now.

Yet here I am, staring at the same beach again...
With a different kind of view
And the same old feeling

I should've finished what I've started here before I left
I should've say goodbye in a proper way
I should've given a better answer to this place and those people

Let me scream it out, Sanur.
Or let me just enjoy you in my silent moment.
For I have left a part of my dream here
I love you in a way that I couldn't describe, Sanur... I really do.

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Tikki Mahayanti

The moroners

2009-12-12T15:52:00.002+07:00

The picture above shows my Moroners friends. There is suppose to be 5 of us (minus Kur2, the guy wearing black (skin) t-shirt). Me, Tommy (guy in white tees), Magda (girl in white tees), Heni, and Marjo. We all went to Architecture, yet after we graduated, only Marjo and Heni stayed on the track. Me, well let's not talk about my job :p. Tommy is a graphic designer and Magda is a (fancy and chic) Visual Merchandiser (that's what she claimed herself to be =D).

Marjo is in Yogya, now married. Heni is in Bali, and she said she's going to resign by the end of this year and return back to Bogor to do my dream job (Ongkang-ongkang kaki, tapi duit ngalir terus... yeah... :)). Tommy's somewhere in Jakarta, being a kutuloncat, move from one compny to another (get out from Jakarta, Michie! there's a lot of challenge out there!). Magda's moving from mall to mall in Jakarta also, meeting celebrities and stuffs :D.

I remembered our states back when we were in college. We weren't the coolest gang in Architecture. me, tommy, heni, and marjo would go to campus by motorbike, and magda would be on her vantrend (well, we were so proud of Fenti, dut! :)).

Look what we have become now. At least we're on our track, pursuing our dreams. At least we achieve something. At least we don't have to ask to other person to fulfil our daily needs and wants. At least we could all survive.

I miss them. I miss when we're all in the same roon, cutting up papers or glue-ing boards. making sketches and colorplans. when making appointment with those guys were as simple as showing up by their boarding house' doors.

Well, there's always price for everything right? But I can always count on them for sure.

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TiQi Bo

Who would've thought

2009-12-07T23:08:00.003+07:00

These pictures were taken before they decided to take their vows. It was just about a year ago. They were just two of my (few remembered) friends I got in high school. And the three of us were just hanging out at a restaurant, checking on our daily lifes.
And last weekend, 5 December 2009, they held their wedding. I was so excited about being in their wedding, I forgot how flat my ass was, siting in my seat for 10 hours just to go to Solo and spent another 10 hours to get back to Jakarta. I couldn't help myself of stretching a smile on my face every single time I memorized something about them. I love you both! >:D<
They were my classmates in my first grade of high school. As a nerd and a transfer student (well, actually not a transfer student, but yeah... I'm an alien there :p), I don't know a lot of people. The girl was someone I hang out once a while, and the guy was someone I tease in class.
The girl told me about how her love life was, and how her family has always said no to every boyfriend she introduced. All the tears she cried every time she broke up. And how I forgot her boyfriend's name... (forgive me, Mip!) I guess, she just haven't 'met' the guy yet.
I remembered, the last time we hang out before they decide to become a couple, the guy said that marriage haven't crossed his mind yet. He was too young. He was still pursuing for his career. He haven't 'met' the girl yet.
And last weekend, they were sitting in front of me, holding on to each other, as husband and wife. I hope the look in their eyes when they saw each other that day, lasts forever.

*hughug*
*still smiling ear-to-ear*

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TiQi Bo
owh, and Mummy... they are BOTH my friend... I've tried to explain this to you since three moths ago... ow well..
ah, one thingy about their wedding souvenir... They gave us knife... am not sure what was it suppose to mean, but my Mum and Pap consider the souvenir as useful... Well, if you guys asked me, I thought after the wedding party, there were suppose to be a massacre... until the last drop of blood! but well, it was just me... :p

A full week with 14 different individuals

2009-11-25T00:20:00.003+07:00

After prajab stories, this time, I wanted to share stories of the 7 days I spent with 14 different person... :)

day 1 - always a procrastinator
Bo: *texting Ayyu* hey, if you're on your way to pick me up, lemme know *preparing to get some sleep*
Ayyu: *3 minutes after I texted her* I'm on my way.
*nooooo, my precious sleeping time! Ayyu! you ruin my plans!*

bluetooth from my DSLR?
Mega: I would love to have the shot!
Bo: Sure, I'll bluetooth them right from my DSLR! *smirking*
Mega: Dammit, my cellphone's dead!
Bo: *whoa, she believes that my dslr could do bluetooth?* uhm, awraity then, I'll mobile upload them... :)
Mega: your camera could do that as well?
*krikrikrik... Megaaaa... naive! :))*

Is it possible?
Febri: Ah, no one got a tele... :(
Bo: yeah, mine's as standard as it could be... hey! I got an idea... how about we glue your lens and mine together! would it be a 18 - 110 mm lens?
Febri: :)) nice! let's find that glue...
*wokaaay,,, mas Febri has gone mad!*

I'm always sick, mas!
Febri: so, since when did you lost your sanity?
Bo: hehehehehe... since forever, didn't you know?
Febri: First time I knew you, you look sane...
Bo: I need to get to know people first to show who I really am, mas... and yes,,, me. insane. >:)
*giving Febri a pat on his back... 'maap mas, temanmu ini memang agak gak waras'*

that's for today... I'll continue them... maybe it's better in Bahasa :D

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TiQi Bo
missing what I have lost... it's trully normal, rite?

I'm here... I just don't want to be found...

2009-11-24T23:59:00.004+07:00

What's the point of feeling lonely? So that you could know how blessed you are having persons in your life... *berasa nyanyi show me the meaning of being lonelynya BSB,,, hedeh... jadul bets... =p*
I'm a loner, Always were and always will...
I disappear before your eyes, and suddenly you can't find me anywhere...
It's not that I am gone, I am always here, I just don't want to be found.

You don't need an effort to push me away
I know it's my time to retreat and step down from my place
I may be hurt, I my felt sorry
But I think you have the right to know who I really am

I am not hiding a stretch of a smile on my face
I will not hide the facts that I enjoyed things that not everybody enjoyed
I will not runaway from the truth

I'm always here, leaving a spot for you by my side, preparing my ears to listen to your stories
If you can't find me anywhere, believe me, I don't want to be found
You just need to sit on your spot tell your stories
Because I am still here, I just don't want to be found

---
TiQi Bo

what if?

2009-11-14T00:15:00.002+07:00

what if God replied all my sorrow with a single sentence?
'where have you been, when you're all happy?'
'kemane aje lu, kalo lu seneng?'
'kowe kie neng ndi wae, pas seneng?'
'ale ni pi kamana, kalo ale rasa snang?'

I would have replied with an honest answer:
'I've been forgetting to thank to You at that time'
in 25 different languages if I have to...

and here I am, when I'm all down and wishful...
suddenly remembered God exists.
And blame it all for God's blindness and ignorrance.

What if God answer all my raging madness with a single sentence?
'have you looked yourself in the mirror lately?'
not in words, but by signs I saw in my daily life.

Astagfirullah.
I haven't thank God lately.
by any means or ways.

---
TiQi Bo
hey, don't judge me by a single post, mate... You might be surprised of how different I am in real life... *owh, if I even have a real life...*

Toshi's playlist at the moment

2009-11-04T21:47:00.006+07:00

Anyway, I'm drop dead at the moment...
My body's not cooperating with me... :(

So, here it is, my play list at the moment:
1. Rest stop - Matchbox 20
And I thought, hell if it's over, I had better end it quick, or I lost all my nerve...
a girl kicking out a guy just 3 miles from the rest stop? this song is cool... *smirk*

2. Out from Under - Britney Spears
I don't wanna dream about, All the things that never were, Maybe I could live without, When I'm out from under...
Britney's baaaaaack! *lebay* anyway, I'm under my nyunyimut at the moment... so yeah, I'll catch up when I'm out from under...

3. First Train Home - Imogen Heap
And I can't do any of that here, can I? First train home, I've got to get on it...
Yeah, still the same homesick girl as I always were... Haven't found a better home to come to, anyway... No place like home... =D

4. Berganti hati - Anggun *yeah, she's still on my play list... :p*
Aku ingin pergi, dan berganti hati...
first saw the videoclip on my way back to Solo... heart transplant, anyone? *krikrikrik* *am heartless, anyway...*

5. Anything but ordinary - Avril Lavigne
Is it enough to love, is it enough to breath, somebody ripped my heart off, and leave me here to bleed, is it enough to die, somebody saved my life, I'd rather be anything but ordinary please..
scream baby, scream! never have been n ordinary person, so why would I change to become a normal one? =p anyway, missed singing this song with Heni out loud... *IS IT ENOOOOOOOUGH?????!!!* =D

6. PDA - Backstreetboys *ow, shush...*
Kissing and touching with my hands all over your booty, your PDA...
sang out loud this song in my office, and no one was even giving a smirk... ah, normal office... and sang this song for Dut and Kur2 and they laughed... aaaahhhh, this is the group I belong to... *PDA Kur, Dut... PDA...*

7. Samba Sunda - Bali Lounge
*krikrikrik* no lyric for this, I just loooooove the sound... :)
I just love this song, I don't know why... maybe it's because the complexity of the sound... ah, and I love depapepe's songs as well... superb! *care for a samba?*

8. Lirih - Chrisye
Ingin ku coba lagi, mengulang yang telah terjadi, tetapi semua sudah tak berarti, kau telah pergi...
I left... you left... you cameback... I'm still gone... sorry for the harsh fact....

9. The riddle - Five For Fighting
Here's a riddle for you, find the answer, there's a reason for the word, you and I...
still can't solve the riddle life has brought me... someday maybe, someday... when I start to find the answers... =D

10. Keep breathing - Ingrid Michaelson
I won't change the world, instead I'll sleep...
I like the grey's anatomy though... and this was one of the song there...

11. 3x5 - John Mayer
Didn't have a camera by my side this time, hoping I would see the world through both my eyes...
is it enough to frame things in my mind through my eyes? at the moment, yeah...

12. East coast of Java - Kayon
*anotherkrikrikrik* I also like the sound, hehe...
succeed to send the mp3s of Kayon to mas Andang..nice thingy isn't it, mas? I've told youuuuu...

13. The Ocean - Mae
You've come over unannounced, silence broken by your voice in the dark, I need you here tonight just like the ocean needs the waves...
Michie said Mae was good, and I trust him for that... it's the only thing that I can trust him on, huehehehe... =p

14. Peppermint - Plastic Operator
My peppermint, my sweetest thing, you can not loose 'cos I can't win...
Missed Bali when I heard this song... Sigur Ros from Anind, Maroon 5 from mas Galih, and Plastic Operator from Mylan... way to go, mates! let the studio swaaaaaay!!!

15. Two way Monologue - Sondre Lerche
So start the two way monologue, that speaks your mind...
I like how this song said about spelling names over and over... my name's rather hard to spell... =D and yeah, missed talking to Mum and Pap... =(

16. Last Train Home - Ryan Star (OST PS. I Love You)
And if you wait for me, I'll be your voice when you don't know what to say, I'll be your shelter, I'll be your fate, I'll be forever...
Train and Home... two way to describe me being homesick...=p This one, is something that describes me going home for good, which I don't know when...

16's good... 16 should be adequate...
Sorry, I'm in the state of emosijiwa and capekfisik, so my play list is kinda weird... Well, who cares anyway, right? =)

---
TiQi Bo

absence

2009-11-01T14:32:00.003+07:00

kataku, Kau yang berkuasa atas segala sesuatu
katanya, Dia yang berkuasa atas segala sesuatu

kami jadi bingung

bolehkah aku
memanggilmu
tanpa namanama?

-A blues for you, 2 Fahd Djibran

hey You, you know exactly how I think and how I felt. Could you give me any conclusion of how I suppose to call this thing? this feeling? this thoughts? this situations? Is there any name at all to state this condition?
Life's bizarre don't you think? it's full of crossroads where you accidently met someone and let them persuade you to follow them to walk along at their path of life, until they met somebody else or it's you who met somebody else. For those persons I've met, I thank you for all the lessons learnt. Life has no dead ends, that's what's fun. When you think you saw dead end, well you can always turn back, mate. Don't take life too serious.
Life led me to you, the one I miss right now. But you, I don't even know wether you were walking beside me or not. I can't read minds, so please talk. I can read signs, but you're not giving any signs at all. Or am I blind, to not see any signs from you?
I don't like this feeling, the feeling that I couldn't even describe. The feeling that I don't know how to express.
I guess I missed my absence towards feeling. Of me being numb.

If you happen to read this, I just want to know, where should I stand? In the corner of your street or should I keep moving to another intersection?

---
TiQi Bo
mangap, bukan posting jatuh cinta... ini posting bingung permanen... so, just leave me be, past! you're history... there's where you belong...
I missed You too, You know... so let's say, a date tonight? would You care to step into my place?

Munyun

2009-10-14T13:43:00.003+07:00

Right now. Yes, right now, at office hours, with piles of papers I'm trying so hard to understand, The thing that I really want to do is having a talk with Munyun.
I want her to slap me in my face and tell me to wake up and face the harsh life.
I want her to just listen to me babble about things that happened in my life
I want me to patiently listen to her when it's her turn to talk.

I guess, talking to her was the thing I missed the most from my Bandung part of life.

Munyuuuuuuun... I promise I wont lost my keys anymore, or get us lost in some parts of Bandung, or go through the wrong way in traffic, or anything else...

Just needed someone to talk to here, mate...

---
TiQi Bo

the world beyond your home

2009-10-11T21:37:00.005+07:00

'Mummy, this world is too frightening for me... Can I just go back home and be there under your watch?'
I remembered when I first stepped out from my parent's house to stay in Yogya. My daddy drove the car filled with my stuffs. Mummy was beside him, being a navigator as usual. And I was sitting at the passenger's seat along with all the boxes. The ride took around 1.5 hours. The longest hours for me at that time.
I was a rebel girl. Through my high school years, I never agreed a single thing my Mum said. I slam the door right at my Daddy's face. It wasn't something that I'm proud of. I use to think that I'm better than they were. That they weren't proud enough with all of my achievements. My selfish thoughts.
And that 1.5 hours ride, I thought it was my freedom way. And Yogya was my freedom gate. Finally, I have a space for my own.
My Daddy dropped my stuffs and arrange them up for me in my new room. My Mummy tried to touch my head or my hand, which I completely ignored. I was too excited picturing the life I would have without listening to my Mum being chatty or my Daddy in his silence.
By the moment they were ready to go, my Daddy hugged me, gave me a kiss, and pat my head and my Mummy said, 'I am leaving this trust with you, we believe that you wouldn't let us down. We won't be like other parents who checked their kids 24/7 because we know, you could take care of yourself. Just think before you act, because you are our only daughter'
By that time, I have no idea about the things my Mummy said. I don't have a clue for the things my Daddy did. I was only 17, and acted like I was 5.
Now, 6 years have passed me by. I've traveled to so many different places. I've met so many different person. I've been through so many different conditions. And I haven't finished this journey of mine.
But now, I understand the words that my Mum said was a big thing. She didn't gave me money, gadgets, or anything else, but she gave me her trust. I have the right to choose everything on my own with my parent's full support, because they knew I would not let them down. Now I know that not all parents gave their daughter, their only daughter the chance to be away from them. Not to mention of being a Javanese. Now I know how hard it is for them to let me go, let me step out from the house.
Now I understand, my Daddy's gestures was the way to say that 'you are my precious' to me. My Daddy never talked much. He never complained the things I did. He was always there when I did my stupidity. Watch me and make sure that I could get up after my fall. I have to admit, it was him who I turn to when I met my dead end. After I talked to my Mummy.
It took me 5 years to realize and 1 year to understand. I am still trying to understand as I live my life at the moment. How lucky I am to have them as my parents. They may not be the best parents I've ever met, but for me, they're perfect.
Today, I won't be ashamed of holding your hands, or bringing your stuffs, or introducing you to my friends, or saying how much I love you. Because I won't let you two down.
so, hugs and kisses, I love you.

---
Tikki Mahayanti
hmm, King, I haven't decide about you yet... ahahaha... I guess I love you too, King! =p
*awh, writing this post brings up memories for me... hmmm... I need tissues here..*

Prajab (part 2)

2009-09-29T21:18:00.004+07:00

The prajab stories continues!
*well, it's about time, Bo!*

bahasa indonesia mode: ON

di hari2 awal prajab,,,

si pembaca doa
Pilas: Wah, mas Sandy baca doa!
Bo: Hng? trus? *iya... saya memang ignorrant*
Pilas: Wah, pasti ada yang salah nih...
---mas sandy baca doa---
*klotak!*
jyaaah,,, ngejatohin apa tuh, maaaas?

sesi askjud (1)
tanya: siapa yang A**** suka?
jawab: Pilas *gue bisa dibunuh pilas, kalo nyebarin ini ke dunia...*

tanya: siapa yang arra suka?
jawab: rina

tanya: siapa yang pilas suka?
jawab: mustahil *.krikrikrik.*
insaplah kaliaaaaan, askjud itu penipuaaaaan...

sesi askjud (2)
Bo: wuis, chaaaaa... brani luuuu?
icha: ehehehe...
bo: kamar lu pojokan lhoooo...
icha: uhm, pengen pipis...
bo: gih, tuh, kamar gue aja, deket...
icha: anterin?
bo: he? takut juga luuu?
halah chaaaaa, nggak usah pake askjud2an... moso gue nganterin lu pipis di kamar yang jaraknya sepelemparan batu iniiii?

hyak, sapa yang belom nanya?
widyaiswara gilak, pake acara ngasih poin kalo nanya... dan nyaris semua udah nanya... pelajaran nyaris berakhir...
dan saya teteup jadi pasivis... baru sadar kalo materi ampir abis..
widyaiswara:...blahblahblah...
Bo: *nyamber* jadi pak, nguohnguoh? *lupa nanya apa, gak penting lah pokoknya*
widyaiswara: oh, blahblahblah...
*ada yang angkat tangan, nyamber kedua*
suara misterius: pak, nguohnguooooh? *lupa juga, nanya apa*
dan materi selesai
dan si suara misterius itu, tak lain dan tak bukan, Pilas... yaoloh, sekamar beujadan lil alamin semua...

Arra? di mana?
ke carrefour beli barang2 titipan, nebeng Pilas, sama Febry dan Arra.
pada mencar2, waktunya mepet, udah ampir jam stengah sepuluh...
waktu mo bayar, Arra masi ilang...
Feb: Arra di misscall gih...
Pilas: Nggak punya nomer hengpunnya...
Bo: ... sama... Oh, gue tanya ma Desi dulu! dya punya nomor hengpunnya mungkin...
---tilipun Desi, sepertinya si oknum lagi hangover apa tau...---
---Desi sms nomor Arra---
tilipun Arra... not working... tilipun Desi... gak diangkat...
Arra udah mau ditinggal... biar pulang sambil ngesot2, nangis di tengah jalan... *smirk*
hurey! akhirnya Arra nongol!
Abis itu, baru tukeran nomor hengpun... iya, kita memang cerdas...
Des, ini semua salahmu! salahmu! nomornya salah! huh! huh!

itu dulu deh...
---
TiQi Bo
here I am, laying on my floor,,, realizing how ignorrant I am as a friend...
when will I tke things seriously anyway? I paid attention on details too much, sometimes I missed the whole picture...
God, I missed talking to You... Have You gave up on me? You, and it will always only be You that I turn to... Forgive all I've done... Thank you, You...

siblings

2009-09-27T22:30:00.003+07:00

First things first...
I would like to express my sincere apologize for you readers, as a year has pass us by and there are loads of things happened... some of them were memorable, some were just garbage awaiting to be thrown away...

okeydokey...
curiosity kills the bird! as requested by some of my friends, hereby I publish the pic of my baby brother *again!*... Enjoy!

*ooom, kasian oooom... anak terlantar oooom...*

You guys really think I would post a pic of King alone by himself?! Whoooooaaaaaa... No way... I know my friends... after the my previous post where I was fooled by my younger brother, they would download his picture and praise him as their new king of nation I suppose... *yes, my friends are soooo glad I got fooled... BY ME OWN BABY BROTHER!!! argh! so much for friendship*
OK, that's it for now...
I'll catch up later... Oh, I still have stories from prajab, no worries, cha! =p

---
Tikki Mahayanti
*King, Gogok jangan diilerin...*

'autistic' and 'blackboxing'

2009-09-18T23:45:00.002+07:00

I like you, don't you know?
I just don't know how to show it to you
And even if I express them to you, I doubt you understand my words

this head of mine, if you could see them thoroughly, you'd see chaos with me trying to unwind them in the middle
and I'm not asking you to sit there and unwind them with me, cos I'd completely ignore your existence

this head of mine, if you could step yourself in, you'd saw a huge dimmed room with me holding an LED lamp trying to struggle my fear of darkness
and I'm not asking you to sit here and try to protect me from absolute darkness

I like you,
all your spontaneous things, the way we misunderstood each other, all your words which I agree

I just don't know how to show them to you
maybe because you needed to see if the world fits in your picture frame
maybe because I needed to learn how to communicate better

don't give up on me now...
because I haven't gave up on me...

---
Tikki Mahayanti
hey, world... I'm home! yay! I missed my yogurt bottles already... No yogurt available in this late night here... dammit! But hey, look at the fridge! gimme the juice, the es cendol, the foods...
My mind is tangled at this moment... and I need to set them straight... god, I need help here...

There's a reason we call it past

2009-09-18T02:51:00.002+07:00

She's beautiful, Bo... I can't compete with that...
What's the point of being beautiful if you can't see through yourself, mate?
He saw you, he chose you.

She's beautiful, Bo... Everybody that I knew said so...
What's the point of seeing anybody else beautiful if you were saying it cynical, mate?
He believes in you, he feels comfortable with you.

She's beautiful, Bo... She's the reason I cried last night...
What's the point of having this conversation if you can't think clearly, mate?
He cares about you, he loves you.

I can't be judgmental, mate. I can't take sides. I can't choose for you.
For all I know, that she is his past. history. period.

And you, are his present.
And hopefully his future.

The problem is, are you willing to let the past be and be there in his future?

---
TiQi Bo
I'll be looking forward to Dec 6 2009, mate. Whatever happens, all I see is Dec 6 2009.
ll the bitch talking, swearing, and dirty jobs? leave them to me... I'm the devilish one. You can't take my role. As I can't take your role as the immaculate one. =p
Anyway, I'll be heading home today! yay! King, pick me up at the airport!
.I.need.to.sleep.

I guess it's in our blood...

2009-09-13T23:48:00.009+07:00

I had a chat with my brother earlier today... I edited his ID, so that my friends couldn't add him on his Y!M... *yes, I am a bit possesive... dude, find your own brother... his solely mine! =p*

TQ: stephen in wonderland? *the status on his Y!M*
TQ: apa itu?
King: Ha? Penyanyi tuna swara
TQ: penyanyi... engh... tuna suara?
TQ: hng....
King: Yap
TQ: and uhm... how does he sing?
TQ: gak ada tuh, gw search di internet
King: By clapping his hand and swinging his afro hair
TQ: uhm... his name is stephen in wonderland?
TQ: I can't find him by googling
King: Go green please, use blackle www.blackle.com
TQ: nope... not working hereeeeee....
TQ: stephen in wonderland?
King: Yap! Absolutely rock dude!
TQ: GA ADA DI SEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRCCCCCCCCCHHHHHHHHHH
King: Masa'?
TQ: makanya gw nanyaaaaaa....
King: Oh yaudah, brarti g ad
TQ: lhaaaaaa?
TQ: sebenernya, ada ato enggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaakkkkkkkkkk????
King: G adah
TQ: hhhhhhhhrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggggggggggghhhhh
King: It's a hoax!
TQ: asshole... :p
TQ: jahat luuuuuuuuuuu
*OK, Bo, si tukang tipu muslihat... tertipu adeknya sendiri... I wonder where did he learn to do such cheat... I never taught him that... *soksokangakmerasabersalah* I am proud of you, King! =p*

King: Lagian iseng amat nyari d gugel, ndak ada krjaan yak?
TQ: lha.... emang...
TQ: lu juga siy... iseng amir...
King: Lah, abisnya gak ada ide bwt status
TQ: king... kamu menyesatkan kakakmu sendiri
TQ: adek durhaka kamuh!
TQ: huh!
King: Jgn blg lw ampe nanyak2 tetangga soal pnyanyi tuna swara ini
TQ: gue nanya temen gw... *I ask my friend indeed... I am too curious to let this thing be... my bad =p*
TQ: kampretooooooooooos
TQ: you got me!
TQ: sesat kamuuuuuh! sesaaaaaaaaaat!
King: Mwakakakakaka!
*hrgh... he really got me... I wish I was there beside him, just to give him that looser look upon his face, ahahaha dammit...*

TQ: gobliiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig
TQ: untung blom aku publish di blog sekalian
King: New blog?
TQ: nope...
TQ: but, uhm... this will certainly be my new post
TQ: huh!
TQ: aku ditipu adek sendiri
TQ: no treat for you, king!
King: Stupidos!
TQ: yeah, me stupid me trust you
King: Me have a stupid sister...me laugh her
TQ: me hate younger brother
TQ: me will tell mummy
TQ: me will be the only child
*so, here's my new post, King... dedicated for you and my stupidity to trust you, hueheheheeh*

King: Haha, bilang aja, yaudah, aku mau beribadah ampe buka
TQ: TIDUR maksud lu?
TQ: eh, dudul... solat kek... ngaji kek...
TQ: kirim doa buat gue kek...
TQ: asal jangan nyolatin gue
King: Nanti dah, kalo dah tiba waktuna
TQ: solat dulu, king!
TQ: masi inget cara solat gak?
TQ: brapa rakaat?
King: Oiya gw lupa naroh blog lw d blogroll gw
King: Solat mah gmpang, tgl ikut yg depan aja
*oh dear... this attitude seems scarely familiar with an individual I knew very well... uhm... that individual I called 'me'*

TQ: ngabuburit ma mas dhanar dan mbak anggun... nyari sepatu buat nyokap
TQ: nitip apa lu?
King: Hokben?
TQ: hmm.. gw pulang naik pesawat
TQ: is krispy kreme donut ok for you?
TQ: *eh, bentar... gw lupa terminal brepe gw brengket* *amnesia mulai kumat*
TQ: then, it'll be food for you, ey?
TQ: ok...
TQ: pork or bacon?
King: Hm...ak yg halal aja, ham aja kalo ada
TQ: hamster?
King: Bukan, daging olahan
TQ: hamberger?
King: HAM, dari hampton
TQ: nggak bak2 an aja?
King: Bak2?
tikki: bakpia, bakmi, bakso... *everything with 'bak' is originally made of pork... A chinese, uhm.. no actually, THREE chinese friend told me about it...*
King: Yah pkoknya enak dan tidak menyehatkanlah
TQ: things with bak2 an
King: Oiya kalo ngabuburit, nitip salam
TQ: salam laos?
TQ: gue gak ke pasar...
King: Bwt stephen in wonderland
King: Mwahauhauhauhau
tikki: SIAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
King: Pull d plug dulu yak, mo tdur
King: Yop
King has signed out. (13/09/2009 15:19)
*Nice epilogue there, King... you GOT me again with that stephen in wonderland*

Please do remind me that I really love my younger brother, and that he is a non edible thing... =p. This kind of chat is what I missed the most when I'm home... Wait for me, King... I'd be home soon... Just to drag your pillows and bolster out of your bed... and of course threw you out of your bed too, King...
I miss you so bad, King... I am sorry I can't always be there when you needed me, and when I'm around, I made you felt like a looser for everything that you did was never right... I envy you, King... You were always there by Mum and Pap while I'm away. You may not have any idea of how precious is that moments to spend your times with Mummy, apart from her petuahyangkadangterlalubijakdansulitdicernadandiulangulangsampaibosan thingy and times you'd have to spend with Pap in silence. But trust me, King... being by yourself and taking care everything by yourself is a huge responsibility. Sometimes I just wish that Mum and Pap were the ones that made the choices for me, so I could blame them when things go wrong just to ask their support, but hey... reality bites! =D
So, uhm... what do you want for christmas? eh, salah... for Idul Fitri? My forgiveness? Huehehehehehe... *hugs!*

---
TiQi
dreams that I have embraced, can't cover the trace of my home - Cover, Anggun
please drop by at http://tekunofuriku.wordpress.com/ <--- King's blog... he's talented and I'm proud of him...

Prajab (part 1)

2009-09-06T14:03:00.002+07:00

Stories from my prajab...
I'll skip the sad, raging, serious, not fun at all part for you guys, and skip into the stupid parts which I also name my daily life...

hari 1
naik taksi menuju tempat penjagalan... Uhm, maksud gue tempat prajab...
Bo: Haluh?
a voice: Tik, lu di mana?
Bo: Hng? di taksi.. uhm...ini...
a voice: Masih lama nggak? Gue uah nyampe...
Bo: Uhm, bentar lagi... ini...
a voice: Ya udah, buruaaaaaaan...
Bo: Iya... iya... tapi ini siapaaaaa?
a voice: Pilas, duduuuuuuuuul!
and she hung the phone...
*yep, itu cara gue tau nomor telepon Pilas... I AM THAT IGNORRANT! padahal dya bakal jadi roomie gw selama dua minggu, dan gue cuma tau Y!M dia, sampe hari itu... me nye dih kan...*

Hari 1 - udah nyampe mess
Bo: Ui, Pil... *masih cranthelan travel bag*
Pilas: Argh... kenapa angkatan kita isinya orang yng diem2 tapi nyebelin siy?
Bo: Uhm, kenapa niy? *bingung, baru dateng... roomie gw udah misuh2*
Pilas: Iya, Tik... lu liat aja, diem2, tapi nyari gara2...
Bo: Pil, I don't get this conversation...
*dan jawaban dari pertanyaan gue baru gw dapatkan beberapa hari setelah itu... ya ampun Pilaaaaas, you and you best frieeeeend! ahahahaah*

ceramah kesehatan
Pak Ketua: Nanti jam lima bakal ada ceramah kesehatan dari kepala balai
crowd: Awwwwhhhhhh...
Bo: Brarti, mesti rapi ya? hng...
Pilas: Yah, gak bisa buka puasa di luar ya?
Bo: Bisa aja... Lu ambil makanan, lu makan deh di luar ruangan...
Pilas: Dudul lu, ah...
...jamlimateng...
Bo: Bakal diapain niy kita? pake ceramah kesehatan pulak...
Kepala Balai; Yak, selamat sore... ini ada orang oxy yang mau bicara...
.krikrikrik.
*promo kok dibilang ceramah kesehatan siy, paaaaaaaaaak? aaaaaaaarrrrrrrggggghhhhh...*

udah kenyang...
Buka puasa di pasar kaget deket mess
pak Ketua: udah kenyang...
*tahu gejrot 2 porsi, es buah satu mangkok*
pulang ke mess
pak ketua: kenyang...
*tambah nasi sepiring*
pak ketua: kenyaaaaaaang...
*tambah lagi kolak*
*ini nih, yang namanya kenyang, pak Ketuaaaaaaaaaa...*

WI killer
bapak penjaga: Besok masuknya jam 8 kurang 1/4 ya...
Bo: Napa?
Pilas: Kata kelas sebelah, Gurunya killer, nggak suka telat... Trus, kemaren ditanyain satu2 gitu...
Bo: Oh...
...keesokanharinya...
laaaaaaaaaaaaah? mana guru killernyaaaaaa? malah ketawa2 giniiiiiiiiii.... kelas sebelah menipuuuuuuuuuu...
*entah kelas gw yang ndableg, ato emang gurunya gak killer...*

ga pernah ngobrol, huks...
Bo: Bobbi orangnya diem banget ya, Pil?
Pilas: Ho'o...
Bo: Gw gak pernah ngobrol ma dya...
Pilas: gue pernah...
Bo: Hah? waw... kapan?
Pilas: Pas nagihin duit...
*dasar rentenir! ngobrolnya cuma pas nagihin duit... gilaaaaaa...*

saingan! saingan!
WI: yak, ada pertanyaan?
yanti ma gw ngacung...
liat2an...
WI: ada pertanyaan lagi?
yanti ma gw ngacung lagi....
liat2an lagi...
Bo: Gw duluan ato lu duluan?
Yanti: terserah...
Bo melanjutkan ngebo sadja...
*WI gilak... poinnya dapet dari nanya... insane...*

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TiQi Bo
tar disambung lagi... mo siestaaaaaaaa...
owh, makasih temen2 prajab gol III angkatan 2 tahun 2009: *nyontek absen dulu...* Tisa, Icha, bumil Fietry, Jimmy, Rin, Chin, Rigano, Arra, Fefen, Kang Iman, Nanang, Yulia, Hesti, Akasa, Damai, Febry, Pilas, Anang, Dina, Swastyastu, mbah Imam, Raden Indra, mas Sandi, Bandung, Bobbi, Dewi, Evie, Hengki, Retha, Ya'foor, Anggoro, Denny, Gita, Yanti, Bumil Putri, Rudi, Pak Djamal, Andri, Arief...
you guys are far beyond my expectation...

Reuni Paus Raya Lagiiiii!!!

2009-09-02T23:38:00.003+07:00

left to right:
Bo, Twin, Irma, Adit
Venue: After Ambonese wedding party, strolled off to coffee fest...

The oriental duo: Twin and Irma
Venue: Foodcourt, waiting for our meals

Twin
Penipuan publik yang bikin kami semua geleng2 kepala sambil guling2 di lantai... Twin, seriously... if you look this handsome in real life... I'd have a crush on you since the first time I saw you in the hospital... But hey, reality bites!

Paus Raya UNITE!!!
Mas Dodol, me, and Irma made an appointment to meet up on an Ambonese wedding party. The wedding reminded me of how and why I missed Ambon so bad... The party also reminded me of why I prefer hugging my friends... The atmosphere, the personalities, the chats, the culture... No matter how hard I try to deny, part of me has always been Ambonese...
Came along Sandi, my twin... He got accepted in pertamina, so he will be staying in Jakarta for another two months... He met us after the wedding party.
Ah, I haven't say much about Irma, right? She's also a member of Paus Raya society. She lives somewhere near Jakarta right now...
I heart you guys so much...

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TiQi Bo
I've finished my prajab. So, hopefully I'd post my story during Prajab... Uhm, in the near future? Is that a good promise?

silly conversations

2009-08-30T12:24:00.004+07:00

Michie said that we could be categorized as a successful human being if someone offered us a credit card in the malls...
Hmm... I guess I haven't succeeded yet...

Vani had a theory that B blood type person are always dark skinned
I was gonna yell, hell no... but then... I'm a B blood type person,,,,

Miv yelled at me when she found out that I haven't got my tickets for lebaran...
Well, uhm... my Mum would yell at me too, so, uhm... could we keep it a secret?

King said that he wasn't sleeping when I called him
And we both know, that was a lie, ey, King? you're my younger brother, I know you...

He said that I couldn't laugh at the story he was about to tell me
For you, I would not laugh,,, but for all my insanity to have the guts to talk to you, I'd laugh out loud...

Magda was grumbling about how people surround us got married...
I guess, you should drag Kur to the church as fast as you can, Dut... for I could not stand listening to this conversation... seriously...

He asked me, who's my spouse right now...
If you were following this blog, then we both know, that you were just creating a conversation...

Mum asked why I haven't call her in a week
I asked her back, why hasn't she call me,,, which made her yell at me... I guess, I need to feed my ego... and realize that my Mum is a drama queen...

Twin said that the picture of himself is who really is
And I vomit a little there, twin... =p

Bu Nuke and Vani complained about my left handed mouse location, Vani even said that it gave her headache...
And does it seems like I care? No... I call it personal... =D

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TiQi Bo
didn't have a camera by my side this time/ hoping I would see the world through both my eyes/ Maybe I would tell you all about you/ When I'm the mood to loose my way... *3x5-John Mayer*
Travelling options for year end... Ambon, Yogya, BaBel (?)... Hmm.. I would skip Yogya if it wasn't you galz, Balz... Looking forward for the fix schedule!

What I wanted

2009-08-28T00:55:00.002+07:00

saya cuma ingin...
kamu mengerti saya
bahkan ketika saya tidak mengerti diri saya sendiri

sepertinya, terlalu sulit.

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TiQi Bo
I'm in the middle of prajab at the moment, so uhm... I'll post my prajab moments when it's done.
Hey You, I'm crossing my fingers here... I need a reply, You... but I guessed I asked a lot, didn't I?
Hey You, I missed you so much, you know... You may sometimes been forgotten, but I promise you, you were never second for me...
Aku.pengen.nonton.cin[T]a. siapa yang mo nemenin (dan bayarin)? give me a call... tidak menerima esemes dan IM, huehehehe...

Another midnite post..

2009-08-17T23:56:00.002+07:00

I was supposed to write about my trip with Michie today, but something came along...

Toshi wouldn't start up... I pressed the power button... No, it wasn't working... Second time, still wasn't working... Then, yeah, I started to panic... Huff,,, but hten, Toshi is alive again now. Thank you You... You know who You are... And thank You, David,, for calming me down...
Anyway, when Toshi was dead *no, Toshi... don't ever do that again... ever!*, I have flashes of images in my mind about computers...
1. MacBook Pro 13" which I saw earlier today with Mich... It was on sale,,, but yet, I still love Toshi... though this love has it's expiry date, hehe... Toshi, darling... no Baby, I wouldn't trade you for a macbook in the near future... *next year, perhaps? huehehehehe*. But really... Stepping my foot into an iStore? aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh... temptiiiiiiiiiiiiiingggg... And stepping in the iStore together with Michie? THAT WAS A SIN!!! *Mich, please do remind me, that this card I'm holding in my hands were supposed to be spent in a more mannered way... iPod touch, maybe? *plak!**
2. SPA 5, college days. ohmy... I can hardly breathe if I memorize that particular thing. I was finishing my apartment design when suddenly PiSyi just died... I cried... *I know, unbelievable...*. Fortunately the data I stored sould be restored and I passed my SPA 5 *well, If I haven't pass SPA 5, I wouldn't be here, right?*. PiSyi is save and sound in my parent's house now... had a face surgery, but overall, she's still PiSyi...
3. Akio, my first laptop. The light blue laptop, which helped me pass my final project. Well, I have no idea where he is right now, but I hand it over to my dad when I finished my final project. *actually, my Dad lent me Akio, but then I took him for granted...*

So Toshi, don't do that again... you still have much time to spend with me... hugs and kisses, Toshi...

Happy independence day, Indonesia... Proud to be an Indonesian, I really do.

My trip with Michie will be written someday, if I felt like writing them down...

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TiQi Bo
anyway, I have a new helmet today... meet Oca, my new helmet..
You told me how to love unselfishly/and eventhough there's no love left for me/ I just want you to know that aI'm missing you... (Ten 2 Five) makasih loh Michie, udah tahan ngedengerin gw menyanyikan lagu yang sama oldewei dari Senci mpe radio dalam, ahahahaha... dan maap kalo gaya gw tetep gini aja dari dulu, kaosan pake jeans, dan sendal jepit ato flat shoes... Jadi gimana? kita jadi pemeran sekuel cin[T]a gak niy? udah pas,,,, cina - *ngaku2* jawa, lulusan arsitektur *dan sama2 murtad*, laki - perempuan... gimana2? besok kasting kitaaaaa? ahahahaha...

abegeh oh abegeh

2009-08-12T23:12:00.002+07:00

As usual, I took a ride in 72 to reach my boarding house tonight... *bok, kesannya kek gw pulang jam 11 malem aja yaaaa... no, I went home earlier, but yet the sun has set...*. There was two high school girls sitting behind me... Me, as usual, was forced to listen their conversation... You decide...

*please do forgive me, if some conversation were not exactly the same as they told... but then,,, the moral of the story is quite the same..*

A: Iya,,, lu percaya nggak siy,,, kemaren gw bisa pulang sendiri naik bus!
B: Wah,,, gimana caranya?
A: Jadi yah, gw naik bus dari sini *melawai, red.* trus ketemu ibuk2... gw ngobrol sama dya, trus bilang kalo gw mo turun di mistik.
B: Trus trus?
A: Ya udah, trus di tengah jalan ada orang mo turun. Pas gw mo duduk, si ibuk2 itu bilang ke gw, kalo mo turun di mayestik, adek turun di sini.
B: Wah, untung yaaaa...
A: Iya, mungkin karena gw rajin solat kali ya?

*I was trying to hide my laugh hearing that conversation... Dude, first of all... it's Mayestik... come on, show some respect for names, please... they mean something... Mistik made it sound like it's a place of dark and full of magic place... And, uhm... you were suppose to be in high school? Ask, dude, ask! Lips and tongue are very useful tools for this thing... And, uhm... what's the correlation of rajin solat and able to get to Mayestik? uhm... I guess there's some correlation, but I think they're far2 away apart...*

A: Gue tuh, sayang banget sama si Gonggong... *It's her by friend's nickname, I suppose*
B: Ya, tapi kasian dya juga kan... nanti jadinya kayak gw sama Buncis... *I forgot the other boyfriend's nickname... so who cares*
A: Iya ya? Lu sayang banget ya, sama Buncis?
B: Uh, gw sayang bangetbanget!
A: Lu dulu brapa lama siy, sama Buncis?
B: Lumayan lama, kok... 6 bulan... eh, 5 bulan siy, yang sebulan itu, HTSan gitu...
A: Iya, gw ma Gonggong juga udah 9 bulan...

*uhm... I'm lost here... 6 months? let's repeat... SIX months is a long time? well, I guess it is... Time and it's relativity... hmm...*

Oh, world... please tell me, what on earth is going on? what did I do when I was in high school? Hmm... basically avoiding attending my classes and spend more time by myself or hanging in cafeteria... I know, my high school life is not normal,,, but hey! At least I don't have to worry anything beside my own self, right?

Owh, this post here is for my cousins who believe that growing up is something she have to pursue... Well, uhm... think again! You'll be there when it's time... And of course for mums and dads who stops by at this post... you've been there done that,,, you must've know what to do, rite? *wah, kena pentungaaaaaaaaaaan... belagak tuaaaaaaaaaa... ampuuuuuuuuuun,,, ahyahyahyahya*

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TiQi Bo
Here's a riddle for you/Find the answer: There's a reason for the world/You and I -The Riddle, Five for fighting
ah, nyaris tengah malam lagi... dan perut bergejolak... pertanda apakah ini? *lebay*

paus raya! yay!

2009-08-11T10:49:00.002+07:00

These guys surrounds me...
They're who I grew up with...
They're there even when I wasn't able to spell my name correctly... *my name is uhm... a little hard to memorize, I suppose*
The guy with glasses is mas Dodol.
The guy in yellow is twin. *ga usah banyak cingcong... walo ga mirip sama skali, he's indeed my twin!*
The guy holding his head is Ebi, twin's lil bro.

They're the ones that I could hug, share some thoughts, and share my meals with
They've seen everything in me... *uhm, as a kid... literally... I've seen everything they have too, hyahahaha*

*hughug*

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TiQi Bo

2009-08-06T10:09:00.003+07:00

Sebuah e-mail dari konsultan kampretski gw:

Untuk penggunaan kata IBU dalam penyebutan nama sampeyan, itu semata-mata rasa hormat saya kepada sampeyan khususnya dan kaum hawa pada umumnya. Sebagai orang jawa tulen saya diajarin orang tua saya untuk menghormati kaum hawa seperti itu. Tapi kalau memang sampeyan tidak berkenan maka ijinkan saya memanggil MBAK. Bolehkan......???

E-mail itu datang, setelah gw protes nggak mau dipanggil 'ibu'. Bukan kenapa2, I don't think I've deserved to be called in that state. Maybe someday, but not in the near future.
I don't like to be point out as 'sampeyan' either... or 'panjenengan'... OK, gw tidak suka bahasa Jawa, terutama pada bagian pengkastaan kromo inggil, kromo, ngoko... *hey, I got FIVE in my annual report when I was in my last year of junior high for javanese subject...*. Gw lebih suka dipanggil 'kamu', hyahahahaha...
Enihoooo, tu konsultan juga nggak pernah manggil gw 'ibu' setiap ketemu... kenapa pas ngimel gw, dya brubah jadi penuh sopan santun yang nggak penting banget gitu siy?

After all,, mungkin bener kata Taz, I'm growing up... *except the part of my OBVIOUS protest of the title 'Ibu'*,,, hmm... maybe growing up is an option I must consider...
OK, mungkin gw harus mulai dengan tidak membawa gembolan ke kantor dan menggantinya dengan handbag? Atau mengganti flat shoes yang lebih mirip sneakers dengan sepatu berhak? Atau melakukan lebih dari sekedar nempelin bedak dan make lipgloss di muka? Atau mengganti pilihan jam tangan yang berbahan plastik ini dengan sesuatu yang kotak dan berbahan metal? Atau mulai menyisir rambut kalau ke kantor? Atau mulai berjalan dengan normal dan berusaha tidak berlarian atau melompat2 di lorong kantor? Atau...
fiuh... banyak sekali konsekuensi untuk menjadi dewasa, rupanya... ah, sudahlah... saya menikmati glundungan di lorong kantor, kok...

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TiQi Bo
I opted not to grow up for this while...

UP

2009-07-30T17:16:00.003+07:00

I watched UP with Taz yesterday...
It was soooooooo great!
four thumbs up!

and the highlight was...
me, I cried while watching the movie...

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TiQi Bo
can I keep the talking dog for me? I wanted Mengmeng to get out of my room... Shooh2, meng2... shooh2!!!

for better or for worse

2009-07-29T10:38:00.000+07:00

I wanted to write down on my blog about what happens in this past few weeks...
I know, I haven't update 'anything' in here... but, there's much going on. I just haven't figure out the way to write them down to my blog.
So, here's a quick review about what's been happening around me...

My family,,, well, they're still my family... I still have a cool yet hilarious Pap, a humble fullofwisdom Mum, and a lovable King. I *heart* them so much. Lately, I have friends texting me about my father's job. Well, actually, they met my Pap in their workplace. They said good things about him, which I am proud of. My Mum brought me back to earth, reminding me that I have to save up what I have for my future. So, instead of buying me a DSLR for my birthday *oh, yeah... I asked i-Phone, DSLR, and macbook air for my birthday... which they COMPLETELY ignore, hyahahaahahah*, they gave me option of buying a house. I eventually bought a piece of land in front of a cemetery next month. And I'll be paying my debt to my parents in another millenium, hyahahaha... I love the land, by the way... It's paddy field. And it's just a step away from my ancestor's tomb... *plak!*. Anyway, wish me luck, on returning my debts... *which I will do in another millenium, as I told you, hehe... yosh!*. King, darling... GRADUATE soon, please... I can't stand Mum's buzz on my weekends just to tell me to remind you to graduate SOON *geez, so many 'to' words there...*

My job,,, it's.. uhm.. well... uhm... I'm still learning what I'm doing here. OK, I admit... what I did here... I doesn't seem much to you guys, out there, I know. And I have to make it clear for you that, no... I know NOTHING about roads and bridges and dams and any other facilities. That's not my field, OK? Are we clear? So, if you guys want to bit*h around of how ugly the roads in Indonesia are, or how poor the facilities we had, or how bad the condition of the water reservoir,,, well... STOP BIT*HING! DO SOMETHING! *gemes deeeeeeh, sama orang2 yang suka ngeluh tapi ga ngapa2in jugaaaa*. Anyway, my job is about SPATIAL PLANNING... so, feel free to bit*h about spatial planning to me... *which I will completely ignore...*

My social life,,, it's been fun living in Jakarta... although, I think my life expectancy is cut into a half for all the dust I suck every single day. But, well.. we'll eventually die, right? I hang out with Mich, Dut, and Kur every Friday night,, which I always look forward to. Hanging out with three chinese human *look, I don't mean to be racist... I love every kind of race,, for me... I don't know my own race... so,,, I think having a race is so blessed*, has altered me into being partly chinese, hyahahaha... The four of us found a comfy hang out place just 10 mins walk from my boarding house, where we could stay and talk until dawn... and the fun part is... we don't even need alcohol or ciggarettes to get us drunk and high... *hughug all of you!*

that's about it... fiuh... quite a long entry, huh? to make it complete,,, here's some stupid conversation to sum up...

Pap: mbak, kamu liatin ya *sambil ngasih hapebergpsyangtidakbolehditukardengansammygw*
Bo: Liat apa, Pap?
Pap: Itu... kita di titik ini kan... coba kalo papa mundurin mobil, gerak nggak?
Bo: Hng? lah... skalanya kan imut banget, Pap...
Pap: Liatin lhooo...
Bo: Baiklah, ayahanda...
*5 minutes driving*
Bo: Yay! Pap! It's moving! It's moving!
Pap: Waaah, GPSnya berfungsiiii...
*nepok jidaaaat!*

Mum: Adekmu aja kerjaannya pacaran terus. Pacarmu mana?
Bo: Hng? *keselek piring...*
Mum: Iya... King tuh, kalo di Solo kerjaannya pacaran terus, kalo enggak ya, tidur...
Bo: Oh.. ya, nanti kalo aku punya pacar, aku juga bakal gitu kayaknya, Mum... *nyengir*
Mum: Yo ra po2... wis wancine...
Bo: Mum.. I'm still in my early 20's... and you got married when you're what? 26?
Mum: Iyooo,,, kamu dijodohin aja ya, mbak?
Bo: ...

Mich: lapar!
Bo: hmm.. pesen gih!
Mich: Lapar! *wogh, mulai nih... Mich.. kalo lu laper... you can't digest anything... so, please,,, order something!*
Bo: Pesen sanaaaaa!!!
Mich: Huh... lapar! *uhuhuhu...*

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TiQi Bo
the reason I prefer buying a paddy field? hmm... it's an angelic reason coming out from this devilish mind... so... just be it... *smirk*

prajab

2009-07-27T16:17:00.002+07:00

hmmm...

since I am a government officer, so the word prajab is a must for me...
and the schedule is out just now...
surprisingly, I got mid august - early september
hmm...

I was just wondering...
how could I be there in that venue?
on fasting month?

because, usually...
at those days...
I'll be chained along with the other makhlukbersungumembawatrisula

hmm...
that, my friends... will be the biggest question I have to deal...

and, I'll be ignoring any other 'ridiculous' requirements...
hmm...

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TiQi Bo

duapuluhtiga

2009-07-06T14:44:00.006+07:00

why didn't I put my birthday on my Facebook?
For a simple reason, I guess...
If you really cared about me, you'd find out that it was my birthday.
You do not need a notification about that matter.
And it turns out, from hundreds of persons that claim themselves as my friends, only a few knew about my birthday.
Now, I am not complaining.
It's just I want to know, who really cares about me.
That's all.

Dear God,
thank you for all the blessings in my 22 years of my life.
hopefully i will be blessed in the following years
please give me an understanding, that blessing sometimes came in disguise.
that how hard the situation is to me, it is still a blessing.
please give me the strength not to regret on every single decision I made.
please guide me through every decision I am making.
please let me be happy and make me see the bright side of everything
please do remind me for the wrong path I took.
for you, god, is the only place I can share everything without being judged.

God, thank you for last night. I can finally see my twin after eleven years. Sharing stupid stories with mas Adit and Sandi is a truly unforgettable moment. aaaaaaaaaarrrrggggggggghhhh, so many secrets unveiled ya, guys... kita dulu nakal sekali yaaaaaaw?

Direktur saiah ituh...

2009-07-03T11:44:00.002+07:00

*this post will be done in Indonesian, to mke my point and to get the moral of this story, huahahaha*

Kemarin gw terkena jebakan betmen bos gw. Gw disuruh rapat yang dimulai jam setengahtujuhmalam sadja... Dan bos gw (kasubdit) kabur dengan suksesnya jam satusiang, dengan alasan sakit... *yeah, rite... like I don't have any brain, sir... you came to my cubicle still smoking with all your bloody pride, and suddenly you're sick? blah... bite me with the reality, Sir...*.
Jadilah gw brengket dengan suksesnya abis magrip, ke salah satu hotel di bilangan Blok M, hewhew... berbekal disposisi dari bos *laknat* gw itu, buat ngewakilin DIREKTUR gw di acara FOCUS GROUP DISCUSSION.. Kambiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiing!!! Ya owloooh, moga2 bokap nyokap gw ga begini kelakuannyaaaaa... malu gw, maluuuuuuu...
Jadi, FOCUS GROUP DISCUSSION ini, cuma ngundang skitar 15 orang, dengan gelar DR dan PROF bertebaran, dan jabatan2 nan mentereng di mana2. Siapa saia? TiQi Bo. sudah. titik. ngekngokngekngok. Clingak clinguk, ga ada yang gw kenal... *Yeah, sure... dengan gelar DR dan PROF dan jabatan setara DIREKTUR dan DEPUTI, ga bakal ada yang seumuran gueeee.... duh gusti, rapat sama opa2...*
Anyway, setelah terombang ambing *antara akanan daging2an dan emih serta buah2an dan es maknyoss*, muncullah sesosok yang gw kenal... Hurrreeeeeeyyy!!! Direktur gw dateeeeeng! Yay! Yay! Yay! Seenggaknya ada opa2 yang gw kenaaaal... aseeeeeek...
Anyway lagi, sebenernya gw mah pengen nyeritain percakapan gw ma Direktur gw selama focus ohwhatsoever itu... Obrolan yang konyol, tentu saja... huehehehe...

Dir: Lho, Tik? Bu **** mana?
Bo: Engh,,, engh...
Dir: Kok bukan dia atau kasubditmu yang dateng?
Bo: Ngh, pak ***** tadi katanya sakit, hehe.
Dir: Ho, katanya ya, Tik? Pasti kabur ya, Tik? *hakjleeebbb... akuh...tak..bisa...berbohong...aaaaaarrrggggghhhh*
Bo: Bu ****, bukannya rapat tadi ya Pak?
Dir: Udah selese, wong saya tadi ke sana. Udah pulang ya, Tik?
*uhuhuhuhu, iya paaaaakkk.... saya ndak bisa bohoooooong... ampun paaaaaak*
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Dir: Tik, kamu nggak nanya?
Bo: Ah, nggak ah, Pak... saya kan nggak ngerti yang diomongin dari tadi apa *yeah, jujur itu menyakitkan tapi emang nyatanya gitu kan?*
Dir: Nanya aja.
Bo: Nggak ah, pak.
Dir: Kamu pikir saya ngerti yang diomongin ini apa? Biar keliatan pinter aja, Tik. Iya kan?
*ahauhauhau... jujur itu penting, paaaaaak...*
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Dir: Wah, internetnya nggak ada.
Bo: Ah, biasanya WiFinya nyala kok.
Dir: Oh, closed ternyata.
Bo: Owh.
Dir: Tik, kamu punya FB nggak?
Bo: Punya dong!
*euh, Pak... tapi nggak berniat nge-add saya kan, Pak? nggak kan?*
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Dir: Rujak, Tik. Seger lho.
Bo: Hng? Ini udah malem, Pak... wogh, saya nggak tanggungan ya, Pak.
Dir: Ah, nggak papa. Eh, iyaya? Udah malem ya?
Bo: Sakit perut lho...
Dir: Eh, Tik...Tik..
Bo: Hm? ada apa Pak?
Dir: Kok perut saya udah mulai sakit ya?
Bo: Aaaaawh, Bapaaaaak... saya nggak mau dimarahin orang2 sekantoooor...
*yes, like boss like staff... devilish*
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Dir: Tik, rapatnya lama banget ya?
Bo: Ho'oh , Pak.
Dir: Ngantuk ya?
Bo: Ho'oh, Pak.
Dir: Apa saya aja yang nutup acaranya ya? biar cepet selesai?
Bo: Wogh, boleh banget, Pak...
*yang ngundang siapaaa... yang mau nutup siapaa... huahahahaha*
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Dir: Tik, kamu nggak mau ngopi?
Bo: Nggak ah, Pak. Males.
Dir: Yaudah saya ambil dulu ya.
Dir: Tik, ada cilok nih.
Bo: Hng? Hahahaha, iya pak, ciloook... *itu fish ball dooong, bukan cilok, Bapaaaak*
Dir: Abisin, Tik.
Bo: He? masih kenyang *abis makan barbar, hauhauhau*
Dir: Oh, ya udah.
...
Dir: Tik, kasian ciloknya, abisin.
Bo: Engh...
Dir: Nggak papa... besok pasti nggak sakit.
Bo: Wah, malah jadi takut makan nih, paaaak...
*dan saya habiskan juga cilok, eh... fish ballnya, haha*
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Dir: Tik, kamu tinggal di mana?
Bo: Radio Dalam, Pak.
Dir: Oh, ngekos ya?
Bo: Hehe, iya, Pak.
Dir: kalo akhir bulan kamu jual baju kamu nggak?
Bo: Ha? nggak pak...
Dir: Wah, kamu nggak ngalamin jadi anak kos. Dulu saya kalo akhir bulan sering jual baju, buat makan, hehe...
*iyawh, direktur juga menungsooooh... pernah syusyah...*
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Dir: Tik, kamu ikut saya aja, pulang nanti.
Bo: Loh, emang searah, Pak?
Dir: Iya.
Bo: Ah, naik bus aja Pak, masih banyak kok *pukul 10 malam di Blok M, masih ramaaaaiiiiii*
Dir: Ah, udah sepi... tar kamu diculik, kan saya yang repot.
Bo: Emang rumah Bapak di mana?
Dir: PA MU LANG!
Bo: Ahahahaha... iya, Paaaaakkk... ampuuuuuuuunnnn....
*iye, Pamulang mah, jaoh paaaaaak*
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Dir: Jauh ya, rumah saya..
Bo: Iya, Pak.. hehe...
Dir: Apa enaknya, saya ngekos aja ya?
Bo: Wogh, boleh aja, Pak.. ahahaha...
Dir: Gimana Tik? Kosanmu masih ada yang kosong nggak?
Bo: Hw? Kalopun ada yang kosong, itu kosan cewek paaaaaak...
Dir: Ah, masa' nggak nerima saya? wong saya udah kakek2 gini kok.
Bo: Wogh, kalo berani ngomong sama ibu kosnya sih, terserah, Pak...
*Direktur gw... lucuuuuuu*
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Over all, sebenernya gw masih melakukan hal2 yang bodoh sih, selama rapat apa tau itu... lain kali gw ceritain deh, hehe...

Jakarta: my point of view

2009-06-29T12:33:00.001+07:00

Some pics taken from my Monas trip. Is this the place where you live, mates? Looks pretty scary for me, though...

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Tikki Mahayanti

So you think so?

2009-06-29T10:04:00.002+07:00

Sent from my Blackberry

What's so good about blackberry, anyway?
It's black, fat, square, NOT ergonomic, expensive...
Was it because of the pride, you decide to have a blackberry? Because you could AFFORD them? Oh, correction, maybe your Mum and Dad was the one forcing you to have one.
Well, excuse me. *not that I will say no if my Mum 'accidentally' bought me a blackberry,,, huehehe*
Do you happen to be a superdupermobilekindofperson who is mobile all the day? Or maybe a superduperbusykindofperson who has to be connected with all you work issues? Or you are a superduperlousykindofperson who don't have the guts to experience the real world?

At those points, I must admit, you might need a blackberry.
For these points, I can not agree:
You need them to only check on your facebook. Your e-mail account were the one that has the notification of your facebook account. You love to scroll the 'roll on' when you have nothing to do. You like the fact that blackberry is indeed a symbol of your status *hellooooow?*. Your clutch is apparently smaller than you blackberry, so that you have to carry the BB in your hand. You are just a spoiled kid who doesn't even know where does money came from *oh, they did not just came out from an ATM machine, stupid...*.

Think. Think smart.

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TiQi Bo
*halah, ngomong aja kalo blom mampu beli BB... repot bener sih, Booooo? Bukan, gw cuma kesel, e-mail2 yang gw terima semakin banyak berbunyi sent from my ohwhatsoeverreallykewlgadget itu*

Because I eventually have a heart, mate

2009-06-26T12:48:00.001+07:00

There are a lot of shocking facts in my new job. Rather unpleasant for me. Some friends said I was a fool for turning down those *slickly* opportunity that laid upon me. And the rest said I was a total idiot to let those *slickly* things happen upon my eyes.
Have you ever watch a muppet show? Oh, or maybe a movie in the theater, mate? Did you experience the thrill, joy, and all the emotions occurred? For that time, you think that you were taking part of the show. But by the end, you realized you were just a spectator, you left the room and turn into a totally different person.
Please pray for me that I had the strength to do so. What happened behind that door, would be forever be locked in the room. And as I walked out of that very room, I am just the same old Bo you guys would probably know.
Oh, mates. sometimes I just prayed so hard that hell doesn't even exist, cos I would definitely go there for all the bloods in my veins are yelling sins.
Oh, mates. most of the times I just wish I could pull out my heart and my eyes when I have to enter that room.

But well, all I can do now is being in what so called multiple personalities.

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TiQi Bo
I'm going crazy. I am. And they told me that a crazy person wouldn't know that they're crazy. Blah! I'll break that theories! I know I am insane! Yatta! Yatta! Yatta!

I've changed...

2009-06-16T12:15:00.002+07:00

I met my long forgotten friends in the world wide web,,, *halah*
Seeing their pictures, just brings out who I used to be...
The little girl that was been chased by my neighbor's dog, go fishing in the city sanitary, ate kinds of fruits in my neighbor's yard *nyolong mode: ON*, played ping pong in my neighbor's place, say my prayers in a room with a painting of last supper in *like I even cared... we prayed in many different ways, and I just basically don't care*...
Me and my childhood phase. The phase which was long forgotten.
My friends recall me as the biggest girl in the class *and when I say BIGGEST, that means FAT and well, literally BIG, haha* and the most tomboy girl they have known. Well, I can't describe myself better than that... hehe...

Seeing their pictures reminds me of how much we all have grown. I barely recognize most of them *not to mention that I really have an awful memory*. They're not the children that I knew. The children that used to play with me. The children that kept loads of my stupidity.

I'm not saying that I have changed radically since the last time I met my childhood friends. Well, I'm still chubby *Ok, smell of denial is in the air, haha*, still dark skinned, still doing stupid things. Still tomboy...
I am me, as far as I know.

But yet, I can't deny, I've changed. might be a slight change, but I've change...

Oh we've got a long, long way to go
To get there
We'll get there
But oh, if there's one thing that we know
It's that we will not grow old

Oh how could we know that day, it came with age
That oh, the feeling would fade...
(We will not Grow old - LENKA)

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TiQi Bo
Sometimes I heard the waves of seas are calling my name, and when I listen to it carefully I know, I just missed the place.

treiler pelm tre(S)no

2009-06-10T11:58:00.002+07:00

Mich, a friend of mine, gave me a link yesterday. A link of a movie trailer titled cin(T)a...
A movie of two architecture college students...
A movie of two human being...
A movie of two cultures...
A movie of lots of differences...

But since they call YOU (GOD, YHWH, EL, ALLAH, TUHAN) with different names
They can't love each other...

And this movie, reminds me of mas Dorodol, another friend of mine... Who was supposed to get married last year, but a problem came up... THAT particular problem...

And then...

'I'll take you to Ambon, to show you religion has been the cheapest propaganda in human slaughtering history...'

Eat that! Eat that!! Eat thaaaaaaat!!!

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TiQi Bo
looking forward to watch the movie... A worth to watch Indonesian movie is rare endangered species nowadays... I've had enough with sinetron-like movie... And don't even bring up k*tika ci*ta ber*asbih,,, awful...

TiQi Bo

Forms of Energy

A view from the other side

Wedding Spree

My Leo Guys

Mataram - Lombok

Planned Life

Sorong - Raja Ampat

the story of my life

.loveyou.

This Ain't The Fairy Tale

the acakadut entry

blinded

Chasing Cars

Happy happy happy! *i guess*

why so serious?

Hanging with the wrong crowd (*)

Just Run. Now.

changes

Between the long winding road

Last Month

devastating

Not Gone

Reversed Order Mechanism

Dek Raka

The lover after me

GARerun

Why?

Taking life seriously

Jambon

.24.

hail stupidity! :p

certainly uncertain

dearmum

vertigo

it's over. you hear me? over.

friends

Senggol Bacok

rescued by the break of day

just a girl after all

deep sleep

Run

pausrayalagi!

I.N.V.U

it takes two to cuddle :p

question marks

life.period.

NKOTB

Holding on

catching up

nada doa*

5 years has pass us by

you.me.DEBATE!!!.yeah.

showing compassion

when I'm not myself

tomorrow

and I said I was mature enough

if a secret makes a woman

coffee + aspirin = trance

Mood swings

what i see from a man

more than a world to fight

flat line

stupidity with moroners

Backpacker borju

what's been happening

I'm not good at words

A chat with munyun

Here I am again

The moroners

Who would've thought

A full week with 14 different individuals

I'm here... I just don't want to be found...

what if?

Toshi's playlist at the moment

absence

Munyun

the world beyond your home

Prajab (part 2)

siblings

Happy happy happy! i guess